Day 94

Busy, busy, busy, nowadays. No time to update. No time to chill. No time to think ! It might be the stress. It might be my cold. Who knows ? All I want is to update a little bit. Not too much. I think that I should edit that playlist sometime. It's not working ): I also think I should be on more during the break in...a week and a half. Oh dear, will I be able to survive til then ? Let's hope so.

Thursday was a good day so let's go there and skip around a bit. Other than being sick, feeling sick and the like, Thursday was a good day. Not a good day of school, but a good day after school. So I was on my way to CSI and the seefut wasn't responding. I had a glance of him outside Mr. Pratt's room among the big crowd but I had to go to CSI. Altho all I did was walk around the hallway outside. After 10th period, I saw him walking back and forth where I was. I did say hi, I really did. I was ignored. ): But all was good. I got to take the train home with him. Yay.

He stayed til after 10th this week, unlike last week when he left at round 3. I told him to go to CSI but he was already out of school. But this week, oh ho !, this week he stayed. I walked to Dekalb with Hung and Naomi. The M train came as soon as I saw him. I had seen him walking to Dekalb before-back inscribed in my memory, like I told my peeps. So we all got on the M train and got to Atlantic. The N train came before we left so I just got up and waved bye to Hung and Naomi-they decided to stay on-and got on the N train. It was crowded. I didn't see him in my car. But when the train pulled out of Atlantic, I didn't see him on the M train. So that meant he was on my N train. Hmmm...I didn't see him though.

I texted him several times when I had service, I guess he didn't receive them. But at 20th ave., I saw him getting up and leaving. In my head I was thinking: "WHAT !? He was sitting down the whole time ?" I was planning to walk to the end of the car earlier but I decided against it 'cause it was too crowded.Oh woe little me. But I was happy after several text exchanges. I probably won't say more. It's time for dinner.

Byebye til break ? Yea, maybe.

-AK.

Day 89

I think today was a rather nice day, excluding my stuffy/runny nose and sore throat. It actually got worse throughout the day or maybe I just started feeling its effects later in the day. I don't know what's going on with my body. I just know I need and should get it in tip-top shape for indoor track. Unless Mother Nature decides to give me my monthly gift, then I'm set for the week.

Today, I did a bad thing. Well, depending on your POV, it might be bad, it might be okay. In my situation, it's a good thing. Well, since Louise knows I guess it's okay. I cut English today, again. Well, I was planning to only go in late but then Seefut texted me, asking if I was at breakfast. Minutes later, I see him coming through the center section and when I saw him, I just smiled. He did too and we studied for the AP Bio quiz. I was studying (or trying to) before he came. He was studying from my notes and I was studying from the review book. There was some chitchat in between-not writing that stuff down, I don't remember exact stuff-and about 10-20 minutes later, he went to class, unlike me. I was a little disappointed he didn't stay, but what he did after first period made my day.

I was throwing out the garbage form breakfast when the first bell signaling the end of first period rang. There was one tray left in my hand but the garbage can was overloaded, so I had to look for another one. Then Seefut came up behind me and I go: WHOA, Stalker ! After finding a place to throw out the stupid tray, we walk to class together...along with my friends and his friends. LOL. But the fact that he came back down to the cafe to look/wait for me to go to class with him, made me really happy. We had the stupid quiz afterward and it was fun texting during my Bio class. I mean, I really tried to pay attention but ALL I heard was "blah, blah, blah" from the teacher. I didn't understand a single word he said. And I wonder why I'm failing Bio, ick.

Once again, it's getting late. It's not even 10:30PM yet but I'm sick and tired. I'm just gonna go shower, take some meds and sleep. This headache is killing me. Maybe I'll talk more about other things tomorrow, if I feel like it. Or if I have the time.

For now, byebye and good nights (: !

-AK. ♥

Day 88

I just realized my posts label the days since school started, right ? Yea I include weekends-got a problem ? I only realized this 'cause Tom-in my Calc class-said it's only the 40th day of school and I was up to 60-something in my blog. And I corrected him and his eyes like bugged out. But he didn't include weekends while I did, so yea. That was sort of random, but I felt like jotting it down 'cause I had to count the days since my last post and I realized I include weekends. I also need a new blue-ish picture of myself, preferably a shade to match my background ? I have this thing of needing to match, thanks Vicky ):

An update...not much going on, really. In school I felt somewhat behind last week. Like, I don't know...I just needed time to stop for a minute or two so I can get my thoughts together, so I can know hat's going on and stuff. I just felt like the world was going by way too fast for me and before I knew what happened, I'm up and going to my next class. My days felt like they were too quick and now I sort of feel like I lost a week of my life. I don't know. It's odd 'cause I felt like the days passed by really quickly but my week was painfully slow. Weird, huh ? I don't get it myself.

That sort of sums up my week. OH, I ALMOST FORGOT AN IMPORTANT DETAIL. Something epic happened exactly a week ago. I passed a Calculus test. WITH A 68 ! I was so happy. Not about the 68, but about the fact that I passed. because of this little fact, my math teacher told me I passed for the MP. Okay, I only passed, big deal. But it was a good step towards acing this course. A good step. I was happy for a while. A long while. I think I still am. I just finished the homework a while back and it actually took me less than an hour ! It felt like ti was too easy. I'm kind of scared of what's to come because of that ): ! But enough of math, I need to study for Bio tonight. Have that annoying quiz tomorrow. Ick.

That's my school life. Very typical, very boring, and very...plain, I guess. In a way that's good. I don't want anything drastically out of the ordinary. But something drastically good might be nice, but that's like hoping for the impossible. Um, onto a personal update ?

Not much to report. Although I've taken the "Vicky" way and not seem desperate and have the guy come to me. Yea, whatta move. I don't know...I just hate seeming desperate. I have some kind of dignity, ya know. I remember back in April I was so...pathetic, in my opinion. I mean, I have more dignity than that so why was I like that ? I have no idea. Yea, at this point I'm just rambling while "studying: for my AP Bio quiz tomorrow with seefut. He's actually very helpful and smart.He's like helping me off the top of his head ): ! No wonder he got a freakin' 110 on the last quiz. Darn him. But he's helpful...so I should be grateful ;O !

Moving on. It's 11PM already. I should go shower and do some studying for Bio and get some sleep. For once I don't have to worry too much about homework. I did my USH one ahead of time, I finished my math, none for English or Bio. I'm gooooood ~ For now :x Oh yea, before I go. Just a quick note. I probably won't be updating too much on my personal life as of now. It's a bit much and like..you won't get much of it anyways unless I go into great detail-which I won't. I don't have the flippin' time for that ! But yea, just letting you know ahead of time do you won't be wondering why I'm updating less and stuff.

Well, I'm outs ! Good nights and wish me luck !

-AK. ♥

Day 85

So, today's Friday. TGIF, ftw. I'm so uber Asian ): But it's necessary for now ! Who am I kidding, I'm supposed to be uber Asian. Now I gotta stop making them faces long enough to make it through this post. Ha. I remind myself of Hung with that sentence. "Don't make uber Asian faces on the Web." LOL.

So right now as I'm typing this paragraph, I'm in my Physics class and for the first time in like...2 or 3 months, we're on the computers doing our UTexas hws. I'd do mine but I lack the motivation to do it in school...for now. I'll do it when he comes around. Let's update on my day ! Well, yesterday first 'cause today isn't over just yet (: (Darn, another smiley.)

Yesterday was Thursday. I originally planned to go home early and do whatever but then I was reminded that I had CSI club. I hate Thursdays now. I have class in the basement for 9th period and CSI club is on the 6th floor...right after 9th. Ugh. So I make my way to the 3rd floor for my locker, grab my stuff and head for the 6th floor. I don't know why but I get really hot and sweaty-ish when I get to the 6th floor. Maybe it's the altitude ? Ha, here I am trying to sound smart. Or maybe 'cause it's one of the top floors and all the heat travels up...maybe that's why. But I was with a classmate of mine, Siu Lam, and we just got off the 6th floor and were headed for the hall. I was huffing and puffing and out of nowhere, I see Peach. Like right there ! In like a very...bad moment. One of my ickier moments and he sees me. Of all the days for me to see him after school ! Why, oh why. And it doesn't stop there ! (I think he waved though, I aint sure :[ )

So after that icky moment, here comes another one. The fire drill rang. I was tired. I just walked up to the 6th floor and I don't care what happens, I wasn't going back down. Well, I only say that 'cause I knew it wasn't real. So I was complaining about that to Siu Lam and while I was ranting my big mouth off, seefut came along. Like, seriously !? Peach was enough, but seefut too !? What are the freakin' odds ? We had a small convo. He asked if the drills were real or not and I just shrugged. "I don't think so." And we had a mini-convo on what we were both doing after school. I told him to go to CSI-via text-but it was too late. He was already out of school by the time I told him. Wah.

I went home after hanging with Triple L and I took a 2-hour nap. For real. I was so tired and exhausted and that nap felt so damn good. But the only problem was that I wasn't tired or sleepy til 12. But then I still felt like I slept pretty well. But something made me smile before I went to bed.

(9:58:11 PM): Well good night
(9:58:15 PM): Maybe ill wake up at midnight and talk to u
(9:58:20 PM): really ?
(9:58:24 PM): i'd like that :]

He didn't wake up at all though. That got me a bit sad, but this part of the convo had me smiling. That was probably the highlight of my day/night.

Well, my dad's being uber bitchy now. It's a Friday night and I have no idea what the hell's wrong with him. Why tkae it out on us ? Like seriously ? My sister and I were just talking. Like sisters ! We weren't beating each other up or fighting or anything. So WHAT. THE. FUCK.

Yea, I was planning to stop right there BUT TOO BAD. So, where was I ? Ah yes, that convo. And that wraps up my...Thursday.

Nothing interesting happened today. I had bio lab and that just pissed everyone off. The teacher was so anal about the lab. He didn't even explain properly. "Oh, it's self-explanatory" -glances at lab- Suree. Then there was one group that he got uber pissed that 'cause they were sitting around and doing nothing then he goes mega-bitching on every single group. Our group kinda messed up 'cause the stupid stoppers wouldn't stay in place. The thing that ticked me off the most was that my group showed that we cared about the fucking lab and one of my group mates was trying to get the teacher's attention and asking him what we should do now that our lab has failed. He just ignored him. Our group was like: wtf. And when he came over like 10 minutes later, he just glanced at our lab and walked away with an unsatisfactory face. Well, screw you too. That wasn't a good beginning of the day for me. If I could, I would've slapped him across the face and ask him why the hell he's being such a bitch.

To make things better, I didn't do the Calc hw. I kinda fell asleep too early and didn't wake up on time. Luckily he didn't check mine-I think he was in too much of a hurry to go over the homework. "We just don't physically have the time !" Every day :P It's kinda funny though. Anyway, moving on. Indoor track was hell today. I'm still recovering from yesterday and today we did more laps. Ugh. There's this one muscle in my left quads that's just...dying. It hurts to go up or down the stairs. Walking horizontally-I don't have much of a problem. Yea...I just blanked for a second. I'm trying to finish this asap before my dad gets mad again.

I guess that's it for now ? These last few days have been ick for me. Report cards next week, oh the freakin' joy. I swear after this weekend, I'm not going to procrastinate. Well, I'll try my best ! (For my sake, I better succeed.) After telling Aimee to have a happy birthday, we're kind of reconnecting/updating each other. It's been ages since we've talked. Too bad I can't stay on for too long. Ugh.

Oh, and seefut aint answering now :/ Bright-ish side: he has an away up now so at least I know he's away ? Meh. I'm not texting him anymore until he texts me. I already sent like 3-5 texts with no response, like at all. ): Also Vicky seems preoccupied atm ): She's having a tough day. Darn, I should've gone to see her today. But we didn't make any plans ): Hmm...when I get money again we should go on a shopping spree. Sound nice, Vicky (: ? Yea, might take a while :x

Well, I'm tired. I'm cold. I think I smell. I want fuzzy slippers. And I wanna be warm. So, off I go to shower and sleep. Good nights (:

-AK.

bah

I hate how the simplest things he does makes me smile, or makes me forget about all the shit I was thinking about before. I was telling Louise and asking her if she remembered that convo we had one day. She did and I told her I was feeling like that again, for no apparent reason. It just...came. But then, he woke up and answered.

He said he dozed off a bit and now woke up for a bit. Maybe my IMing was annoying him. Oh well, he woke up. (: (damn, that was such a vicky line. LOL) I don't know why but that sort of cheered me up a tad bit. Just the slightest bit. Oh, now he's going back to sleep. Time to print out the hw, copy it, and start my Calc. Yea, I'm starting my Calc hw a little bit before 1am. How sad. But I had a latte today so I actually don't feel sleepy yet. Tired, sure. But not sleepy.

That's not good.

I have gym tomorrow. First day of indoor track ! Gee, I hope we only have time for like 2-3 laps. I can't do 5+ so early in the game. But I'll us indoor track to my advantage and not slack off this MP. I really need to get fit again. I feel so lazy and flabby ever since I got back from Tennessee-about 3 months ago.

Well, for real-good night. (: I just realized I should edit my playlist sometime LOL. Too much new music lately.

There isn't a reason-I just like you.
When we first met, I felt something important.
Take a deep breath, let my heart settle down.
A perfect love is a silent melody.

幸福不灭 ; show luo ♥

Day 83 - blah

Tuesday, December 1st, 2009

I'm really, really tired right now. And I don't even know why. I don't wanna stay up ): But I feel like I should update, otherwise it'll catch up with me and I'll be updating a week in one night or something. Why is it when I go back to school, all I feel like doing is staying home and sleeping ? Ugh, the things school does to you.

Okay, so basiclly this morning was a bit blah. I went to English class ! Maybe that's why my day sucked ? But yea. I didn't go to breakfast today and I was 15 minutes early to English. A miracle ! Oh, and I texted early in the morning and he didn't text back, at all. How sad ): And Bio was boring as hell. Thank goodness the teacher was absent ! We had this worksheet thingy withan article thingy. Eh, took a couple of minutes. Nothing too bad. The reading was tedious though. He was with his friend the whole time, so eh. I spent my time doing...nothing. For once, I finished my math hw-ish. I was so proud of myself !

The day was actually pretty slow-ish. The classes were so painful to go through, seriously. I couldn't waitf or the day to end. I went with Vicky to Chinatown to order that cake for my mom. I ordered this really pretty looking mango cake. Man, it wasn't pretty for nothing. It cost a lot. But kinda worth it I guess(I just finished eating it. Yum). Then I went home, blah blah blah. I actually did my Calc hw though. It was pretty straightforward-nothing too difficult. Oh, yesterday I was really tired so I kinda took a "nap" and my dad scolded me for not doing the dishes. I was so pissed off that after slamming a couple of plates into the dish washer, I just dried my hair off and went to sleep, frustrated. I woke up the next morning-really early-'cause I set my alarm clock for 4:45am but I was too lazy so I waited til 5:45. I stayed in bed for a couple of more minutes and got my butt up at around 5:52am. I only know the exact times 'cause of my ever-so-handy-phone.

Wednesday, December 2nd, 2009

So that started off my Wednesday. It wasn't too good of a start. I woke up really sore and I washed up and then headed straight for the computer. I remember I left it on last night (whoops) and I just needed to check/finish some things and I was off. I tried to finish yesterday's post so I had one less to do now but that sorta didn't happen. Who knew 30min can pass by so quick in the early hours ? Before I knew it, my mom was up (I gave her a "Happy Birthday" First one, yay.) and my dad was in the bathroom already. I had to hurry and turn the computer off. So I did. Not like he was on anyways. He wasn't on the day before too. Eh.

I actually made myself some breakfast today ! A turkey and ham sandywich. They were Thanksgiving leftovers but when heated up with bread, it was really good. Or maybe I was hungry. Not really-I always feel a tad bit nauseous in the morning. When I feel sick to my stomach and don't eat breakfast, my dad questions me and thinks I'm starving myself. Honestly, I'm just not hungry-at least not until I get to school. I hate it when he asks me those kinds of questions. It means I made him worry. I hate making people worry too much over nothing. But I guess that's how some things work.

Today was extremely bleh. There's not many interesting things going on in school and my life lately. It's just the same old same old. I kinda of wished Monday happened again. Monday was the best day of the week so far (in school, at least). Loads of interaction, passed my Calc test (first one ever !) and stuff. Even though it was raining, even though I felt really lazy and tired and moody, it was still a good day for me(in my opinon). But right now everything's just really...bleh. I honestly have no word to describe it. Maybe mundane would work (ooh, lookie a SAT word). Other than my extreme...exhaustion(?) and dullness, nothing out of the ordinary. I don't know if I prefer it this way. Other than "getting serious" and loads of work from classes and such, there's really...nothing new. The usual "I-must-try-my-best" thing.

Not really working out. I failed my AP Bio quiz on Monady. I failed my USH test today. Uh. I failed some English quiz on Tuesday. Uhh...that's all ? Yea. My dad just got out of the bathroom so that's my cue to go shower. Even though someone decided to not ignore me the second he got out. How gay.

More depressing stuff tomorrow-maybe. OH ! I forgot about that little episode with Vicky...darn. Oh well, that was supposed to be a secret anyways :P Gbye for now.

-AK.

blah

Just wanted to say, I think I'll stop posting secrets now. I'll go back to that site in June, maybe earlier if I get like OD bored or something.

Just thought you'd like to you (: Update later ? Tis me mommy's birthday ! So I might not have time tonight ): !

But yea, byebye (:

-AK. ♥

12954.) I love making you laugh.

Vicky :p

12927.) Everyone asks me where do I see myself in the future, I answer with I dont know. Why? Cause I honestly cant see myself in the future. No matter how much I try. And I think the reason is because I'm not gonna get there.

Perfect for your thoughts, eh Vicky :P ?

12938.) I hate going to bed because it leads to me sitting there thinking about you. But I could dream about you my whole life.

Quite the opposite. I couldn't wait to go to bed. So tired this week. Uggh. I guess I'ma update later on today about yesterday too ? Yea, sure.