Oh lookie a third post within one day. Boy, am I good.
I am so darn mad right now. My sister is such a damn pain in the butt. She thinks the world revolves around her. She thinks that every single damned thing in this house has to go her way. She thinks a whole load of shit that's so unreasonable and unfair to everyone else. And my parents tolerate this. Why ? Because it's not role-modely for the eldest one to complain about a younger sib. Like wth ? So, they get to complain about me but I have to suck it up and deal ? I don't freaking think so.
Computer issues. She's always hogging the damned thing. And for what ? Her freaking dramas. I wouldn't mind if she was actually doing homework-I'd let her have the damn computer. but instead, she's wasting her own time-not to mention mine-by RE-watching dramas. What. The. Fuck. It pisses me off so damn much. If it weren't for the fact that my mom would KILL me, and that I need the sleep, I'd be sitting out in the rain, right now. Even though I feel so warm after my shower ): !
The rain is like thundering on my windows. It sounds so chaotic, yet a bit calming to me. I'll probably lie down, listen to some Yiruma and the rain and slowly drift off to sleep...if I don't fall asleep before I hit the pillow, that is.
Ah, I feel so much better now, and a bit hungry. I swear, these best friends really know how to bring me back up. And I had said I'd stand on my own two feet...not without their help. I just feel a bit lighter-emotionally-since I stormed to my computer after being pissed off at my sister. Which reminds me...no more favors for her for a certain amount of time. Bwahaha. So not evil.
When I came back from my shower, Vicky sorta left me a whole paragraph to read. It almost made me tear-in a good way ! Ah, I love her to bits. And Elver actually contributed to me and my...floaty-ness o.o ? I don't know what to call it. The conversation we had was mainly me ranting about history and it sort of cheered me up. He said sorry, so that's a plus. Damn, I feel like a bitch :X But he loves me-he knows it ! Louise's interpretation of these..."problems" sort of helped me too. It helped me understand a bit that, even if I feel like I'm going crazy, I'm not. I love my Louise.
Well, I bee yawning too much so...it's time to sleep. FINALLY ! Good night ~
-AK.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Friday, October 23, 2009
Oh, an addition ?
Because I can do that. And because I am an ass like that. I thought I'd add this now while it's still "fresh" in my mind.
MF handball is fun, when you're with the right people. Vicky, Cindy, Nicole, Elver, Barry, Raymond, Simon and others who are cool enough to be in our group (: Certain people, who shall not be named, just piss me off so badly that a part of me wants to have some sort of rule thingamabob at MF that don't allow people like them there. Honestly.
I just felt like these people made me laugh like an idiot today, so they deserved some recognition here today (: OH, my bathroom is avaliable now !
Good night ~
-AK.
MF handball is fun, when you're with the right people. Vicky, Cindy, Nicole, Elver, Barry, Raymond, Simon and others who are cool enough to be in our group (: Certain people, who shall not be named, just piss me off so badly that a part of me wants to have some sort of rule thingamabob at MF that don't allow people like them there. Honestly.
I just felt like these people made me laugh like an idiot today, so they deserved some recognition here today (: OH, my bathroom is avaliable now !
Good night ~
-AK.
Day 45
Today is Friday. TGIF, ftw. Seriously. This week has been so totally BLECK. I've been feeling a tad bit depressed for the past few days. Hey, maybe I'm finally breaking. So, let's see what's going on...
I was going to update yesterday but I kind of forgot ? I don't know how and why but I stayed up til around 3:30 something in the morning doing that stupid English essay. I had a difficult time coming up with a second work to support my stupid idea. I only stopped at 3 'cause I heard my mom wake up. I literally ran to my room, turned off all the lights and pretended I was asleep. not a bad girl. Not at all. After that, I waited for her to go back to sleep. I sort of didn't wake up until 6:30 and had to finish my essay while my dad was in the bathroom. I printed it out before he got out. Super smooth.
That was this morning. I was going to update about yesterday but there aint much. School, me not saying hi, going to Toys"R"Us with Vicky and getting stuff. That was about it, really. Nothing too out of the ordinary or special. Just spending time with Vicky and enjoying myself. I find that when I'm only with her, just us two (kinda feels private), I can show my true emotions at that time. I'm not saying that I'm not myself when I'm around other people-it's just too public for me, sometime, depending on who's in the crowd, ya know ? Hard to understand, but that's me sometimes. Live with it or go away. (ohgoodness, I feel like a total bitch, too)
Today was a slightly much...more fun day. I wouldn't say better but it was more fun. School was the usual, me feeling disappointed in myself, worrying over shit and blahdeblah. Ever since I transferred to Tech, I'm actually used to the failures. I mean, at Midwood, it's not like I never failed but I never failed so often. Now I'm screwing up my junior year, how nice. I really, really, need to spend less time on the computer. Oh dear, blog I have to leave you ): I'll probably update when I can and stuff. Til then, I'll probably just jot down blog-worthy events and such. So, that's school. Oh, it's the end of the week and my goals lay unaccomplished. I am a bad girl. I can't even keep promises to myself-how terrible. I didn't say hi. How sad. I was super duper close today, though (: But time just isn't on my side lately. -deep sigh- Onwards to MF !
So, it's finally the end of my school day. I head onto MF and boy, there were loads of people there. I knew who was who at least-ooh I so smart-and it was nice seeing everyone again. Stupid Daniel thought I totally forgot everyone. Or him, at least.
D: Remember me ? What's my name ?
Me: Of course I do ! You're Daniel, duh.
D: Wtf ? No, I'm Patrick !
Yea, he really thought I'd fall for it. And I remember David too ! His last name was Rong I think. Maybe I spelled it wrong. Ernest remembers me too :D ! Ah, so I wasn't completely forgotten at Midwood. Makes me feel all bubbly inside. And OHMYGOODNESS I played handball. Like a serious-ish game since like...I have no idea when. I felt pretty good about myself, briefly. I got more hits than I thought I would. Yay me :D ! Other stuffs happened and yea...I don't know when and why, but suddenly I just felt really...sad. It was before a mini-argument I know that much, but I still felt really sad. Maybe it's a lonely feeling from being left out but I don't think that's the main reason...I just can't put my finger on it. Oh yea, that mini-argument was "nothing." It was between Elver and I. Just something handball related, but it sort of got to me. Maybe it was 'cause I lost that argument. I was never a good...what's the word...defender ? Or something like that. Vicky's better at that (: After that, I just felt icky. Maybe I'm being selfish. But someone once told me that being selfish once in a while was okay. But I have a conscience and even a tad bit of selfishness sometimes gets to me.
So, I handled this situation the immature way, of course: avoid and "ignore." I didn't do it on purpose-the immature thing I mean-it just sort of came. After a while, Elver seemed to have gotten over it, so I guess I did too ? By the time we were on the bus, anyway. He seemed genuinely concerned about me, so I let it go. I was reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally tired and I guess I did seem a bit down, Darn, I should've been more chipper. I hate worrying people without meaning to, especially if it's nothing big. Well, this might be big but I don't want to concern others unless it's necessary and I'm at the point of where I need them. Until then, I can try to stand and support myself on my own two feet. When I got home, I almost broke. If it weren't for my sister distracting me and making me listen to her stuff about her day-damn, she needs a blog or a journal-I think I would've been in my room crying. I've felt something well up inside me but never coming out. I think I need to let it out-sooner or later, I know it's going to come out. Like that one time...it was during on of my infamous all-nighters and I was just sitting in bed and I suddenly started crying. I didn't even know what I was thinking about at the time-the tears just came.
Every day, I feel like I'm on the verge of breaking down. I feel like I'm hanging from a cliff and just hanging there for dear life-or in my case, my old life. I want it all back. Back when I didn't give a shit about anything. Back when not a lot of things mattered. It's only those few people that keep me smiling. Just thinking about them sometimes keeps me going through my day. When I think about what I'll do with them, when I'll see them, my day is suddenly a tad bit better. These people are what I call my best friends, and my good friends. Trust me, there aint a lot of them.
Well, I guess that's enough blogging for one day. I think my brother should be done showering soon, so I'll go hog the bathroom next. I'm so damn tired...I can't wait til I sleep like a rock. A dreamless sleep would be nice. Oh, speaking of dreams, I need to write mine down sometime soon and just get it over with before it even started. Confusing ? Good.
-AK.
And just when you think it's over,
Just when you're about to give up
And end it all-
They come along and save you
From the depths of you miseries-
Even the depths of your dreams.
These heroes are what you would call
Your best friends. (Your true friends.)
[i don't know if i should make it best friends or true friends. ideas ?]
I was going to update yesterday but I kind of forgot ? I don't know how and why but I stayed up til around 3:30 something in the morning doing that stupid English essay. I had a difficult time coming up with a second work to support my stupid idea. I only stopped at 3 'cause I heard my mom wake up. I literally ran to my room, turned off all the lights and pretended I was asleep. not a bad girl. Not at all. After that, I waited for her to go back to sleep. I sort of didn't wake up until 6:30 and had to finish my essay while my dad was in the bathroom. I printed it out before he got out. Super smooth.
That was this morning. I was going to update about yesterday but there aint much. School, me not saying hi, going to Toys"R"Us with Vicky and getting stuff. That was about it, really. Nothing too out of the ordinary or special. Just spending time with Vicky and enjoying myself. I find that when I'm only with her, just us two (kinda feels private), I can show my true emotions at that time. I'm not saying that I'm not myself when I'm around other people-it's just too public for me, sometime, depending on who's in the crowd, ya know ? Hard to understand, but that's me sometimes. Live with it or go away. (ohgoodness, I feel like a total bitch, too)
Today was a slightly much...more fun day. I wouldn't say better but it was more fun. School was the usual, me feeling disappointed in myself, worrying over shit and blahdeblah. Ever since I transferred to Tech, I'm actually used to the failures. I mean, at Midwood, it's not like I never failed but I never failed so often. Now I'm screwing up my junior year, how nice. I really, really, need to spend less time on the computer. Oh dear, blog I have to leave you ): I'll probably update when I can and stuff. Til then, I'll probably just jot down blog-worthy events and such. So, that's school. Oh, it's the end of the week and my goals lay unaccomplished. I am a bad girl. I can't even keep promises to myself-how terrible. I didn't say hi. How sad. I was super duper close today, though (: But time just isn't on my side lately. -deep sigh- Onwards to MF !
So, it's finally the end of my school day. I head onto MF and boy, there were loads of people there. I knew who was who at least-ooh I so smart-and it was nice seeing everyone again. Stupid Daniel thought I totally forgot everyone. Or him, at least.
D: Remember me ? What's my name ?
Me: Of course I do ! You're Daniel, duh.
D: Wtf ? No, I'm Patrick !
Yea, he really thought I'd fall for it. And I remember David too ! His last name was Rong I think. Maybe I spelled it wrong. Ernest remembers me too :D ! Ah, so I wasn't completely forgotten at Midwood. Makes me feel all bubbly inside. And OHMYGOODNESS I played handball. Like a serious-ish game since like...I have no idea when. I felt pretty good about myself, briefly. I got more hits than I thought I would. Yay me :D ! Other stuffs happened and yea...I don't know when and why, but suddenly I just felt really...sad. It was before a mini-argument I know that much, but I still felt really sad. Maybe it's a lonely feeling from being left out but I don't think that's the main reason...I just can't put my finger on it. Oh yea, that mini-argument was "nothing." It was between Elver and I. Just something handball related, but it sort of got to me. Maybe it was 'cause I lost that argument. I was never a good...what's the word...defender ? Or something like that. Vicky's better at that (: After that, I just felt icky. Maybe I'm being selfish. But someone once told me that being selfish once in a while was okay. But I have a conscience and even a tad bit of selfishness sometimes gets to me.
So, I handled this situation the immature way, of course: avoid and "ignore." I didn't do it on purpose-the immature thing I mean-it just sort of came. After a while, Elver seemed to have gotten over it, so I guess I did too ? By the time we were on the bus, anyway. He seemed genuinely concerned about me, so I let it go. I was reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally tired and I guess I did seem a bit down, Darn, I should've been more chipper. I hate worrying people without meaning to, especially if it's nothing big. Well, this might be big but I don't want to concern others unless it's necessary and I'm at the point of where I need them. Until then, I can try to stand and support myself on my own two feet. When I got home, I almost broke. If it weren't for my sister distracting me and making me listen to her stuff about her day-damn, she needs a blog or a journal-I think I would've been in my room crying. I've felt something well up inside me but never coming out. I think I need to let it out-sooner or later, I know it's going to come out. Like that one time...it was during on of my infamous all-nighters and I was just sitting in bed and I suddenly started crying. I didn't even know what I was thinking about at the time-the tears just came.
Every day, I feel like I'm on the verge of breaking down. I feel like I'm hanging from a cliff and just hanging there for dear life-or in my case, my old life. I want it all back. Back when I didn't give a shit about anything. Back when not a lot of things mattered. It's only those few people that keep me smiling. Just thinking about them sometimes keeps me going through my day. When I think about what I'll do with them, when I'll see them, my day is suddenly a tad bit better. These people are what I call my best friends, and my good friends. Trust me, there aint a lot of them.
Well, I guess that's enough blogging for one day. I think my brother should be done showering soon, so I'll go hog the bathroom next. I'm so damn tired...I can't wait til I sleep like a rock. A dreamless sleep would be nice. Oh, speaking of dreams, I need to write mine down sometime soon and just get it over with before it even started. Confusing ? Good.
-AK.
And just when you think it's over,
Just when you're about to give up
And end it all-
They come along and save you
From the depths of you miseries-
Even the depths of your dreams.
These heroes are what you would call
Your best friends. (Your true friends.)
[i don't know if i should make it best friends or true friends. ideas ?]
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Day 43 - a post before midnight !
Today was...not so horrible that I feel like yanking my hair out but not so great that I feel like jumping for joy, either. I think I'm close to yanking my hair out though. Somewhere on the verge of going insane. Let's hope I get a grip on sanity and survive this year. So, update-here we go.
I slept at 4 this morning-I was hoping for 3 or before that but my homework, organizing and routines took an hour-and woke up at 6. Hmm...two hours of sleep. Not good. I was so...lifeless when I got to school. I felt like a damn zombie except I have all my brains. I think. I didn't even have the energy to speak up properly. I think I sort of got better as the day progressed. Better physically. I can't say much about my mental health. No, I don't think I have any mental issues, or anything like that.
I actually have more to say today-I think. If I have the time and I'm not too lazy or distracted, I'll type out my whole day...maybe. Let's being with English. It was...kind of bad ? We have an essay due on Friday and I'm supposed to start it now. Whoops. It can wait til...tomorrow ? Eh, it's critical lens-I hate that stuffs. But it's "good practice." AP Bio was the usual boring shit. I brought my Calc textbook to school today and finished my homework-sorta. I always end up doing or copying my math homework in AP Bio and yet, I wonder why I'm failing. AP Calc wasn't too bad, other than the fact that he called my house and I totally remembered it...I actually sort of get the material we did today. A lot more than the usual "I think I get it" times. I better not get too confident. If I get disappointed again, I don't know how the heck I'm going to handle another failing grade. Then comes P.E., my favorite class of the day. NOT because I get to see the senior, but because I actually have fun in that class and I'm not failing :D But I didn't see him today. I think he was a tad bit late. He wasn't with his friend and I almost thought he was absent til I saw him coming in. Harhar. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I CAN'T SAYING A FUCKING HI. Sorry for the sudden cursing, but I'm not myself today. But yea, I can't say hi. It's my bad timing. You know how you say hi to someone you know as soon as you see/notice them ? I always have bad timing. He's almost always behind me and it's too late for me to just turn around and say hi then make it awkward. Maybe I'm just over-thinking it too much. But I am determined to say a damned hi by the end of this week. Tomorrow, definitely tomorrow. I think I'm being a tad bit immature about this. I should just say a damn hi-it's no big deal. Who cares if it's awkward-right ? Right. I can do this.
So, moving on. Nothing interesting happened today. EXCEPT, now I must rant. Okay I must say (sorry for those of you reading) that a certain person I know is a dick. A total dickface. NO OFFENSE TO YOU, LOUISE. I know she's dating him and stuff, but a girl can't help but complain when she needs to. It's just...I hate it when someone thinks they know everything about someone else. More like, they think they know every single freakin' thing there is to know. That really pisses me off. And how they use that information to kind of...what's the word...crush your hopes ? Or something like that. Like okay, he's had one class with Mr. Senior. Big whoop. So, now he knows everything about him, how he's never going to have a girlfriend(not like I really wanted to go that far, I can still hope though), how he's not interested in younger girls(yea, he's one to talk) and how he pities him 'cause I fancy him. NO. I was fine with everything up until the last one. He fucking pities him 'cause I fancy him ? Like wtf ? That makes absolutely no freakin' sense. We're not dating, and he doesn't know I fancy him so there's nothing to effing pity him for. Sorry if you're reading this Louise, you know how I get when people...tweak me :/
I AM PERFECTLY FINE ~ Okay, so little miss vicky just signed off and she's playing a little matchmaker with me and...someone. I kind of don't want her to D; I know I know, she's probably just entertaining herself :P But...eh. I just want to see how things go. I don't want to rush things and end up doing things I might regret later on. Yea...just a bit of insight I guess. AH, it's only 10PM but it feels like...12 or later. I feel oh so tired and my parents are bitching oh so much. I think I'll shower as soon as my bro finishes and then sleep. I can't wait til tomorrow to accomplish my goal ! I had better do it. I hope my timings tomorrow are a tad bit better...IT DON'T MATTER. I'MA DO IT ANYWAYS ;O ! I totally got this. I can't wait til Friday-a nice relaxing afternoon at MF. Seeing my two besties and just...chilling, for once. I hope I don't spend too much money-I'm going broke like everyone else. I need to save up money. For what ? I aint so sure. But having money is way better than being broke, right ? Right.
Ah, stomach pains are coming back. Time for my meds. I hope it goes away, seriously. Til tomorrow ? Maaybe.
-AK.
Three people who make my day.
No matter how I'm feeling,
Or what I'm doing-
They make me forget everything
And just enjoy the time I spend with them.
Where would I be without them ?
(have fun guessing, vicky)
I slept at 4 this morning-I was hoping for 3 or before that but my homework, organizing and routines took an hour-and woke up at 6. Hmm...two hours of sleep. Not good. I was so...lifeless when I got to school. I felt like a damn zombie except I have all my brains. I think. I didn't even have the energy to speak up properly. I think I sort of got better as the day progressed. Better physically. I can't say much about my mental health. No, I don't think I have any mental issues, or anything like that.
I actually have more to say today-I think. If I have the time and I'm not too lazy or distracted, I'll type out my whole day...maybe. Let's being with English. It was...kind of bad ? We have an essay due on Friday and I'm supposed to start it now. Whoops. It can wait til...tomorrow ? Eh, it's critical lens-I hate that stuffs. But it's "good practice." AP Bio was the usual boring shit. I brought my Calc textbook to school today and finished my homework-sorta. I always end up doing or copying my math homework in AP Bio and yet, I wonder why I'm failing. AP Calc wasn't too bad, other than the fact that he called my house and I totally remembered it...I actually sort of get the material we did today. A lot more than the usual "I think I get it" times. I better not get too confident. If I get disappointed again, I don't know how the heck I'm going to handle another failing grade. Then comes P.E., my favorite class of the day. NOT because I get to see the senior, but because I actually have fun in that class and I'm not failing :D But I didn't see him today. I think he was a tad bit late. He wasn't with his friend and I almost thought he was absent til I saw him coming in. Harhar. I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I CAN'T SAYING A FUCKING HI. Sorry for the sudden cursing, but I'm not myself today. But yea, I can't say hi. It's my bad timing. You know how you say hi to someone you know as soon as you see/notice them ? I always have bad timing. He's almost always behind me and it's too late for me to just turn around and say hi then make it awkward. Maybe I'm just over-thinking it too much. But I am determined to say a damned hi by the end of this week. Tomorrow, definitely tomorrow. I think I'm being a tad bit immature about this. I should just say a damn hi-it's no big deal. Who cares if it's awkward-right ? Right. I can do this.
So, moving on. Nothing interesting happened today. EXCEPT, now I must rant. Okay I must say (sorry for those of you reading) that a certain person I know is a dick. A total dickface. NO OFFENSE TO YOU, LOUISE. I know she's dating him and stuff, but a girl can't help but complain when she needs to. It's just...I hate it when someone thinks they know everything about someone else. More like, they think they know every single freakin' thing there is to know. That really pisses me off. And how they use that information to kind of...what's the word...crush your hopes ? Or something like that. Like okay, he's had one class with Mr. Senior. Big whoop. So, now he knows everything about him, how he's never going to have a girlfriend(not like I really wanted to go that far, I can still hope though), how he's not interested in younger girls(yea, he's one to talk) and how he pities him 'cause I fancy him. NO. I was fine with everything up until the last one. He fucking pities him 'cause I fancy him ? Like wtf ? That makes absolutely no freakin' sense. We're not dating, and he doesn't know I fancy him so there's nothing to effing pity him for. Sorry if you're reading this Louise, you know how I get when people...tweak me :/
I AM PERFECTLY FINE ~ Okay, so little miss vicky just signed off and she's playing a little matchmaker with me and...someone. I kind of don't want her to D; I know I know, she's probably just entertaining herself :P But...eh. I just want to see how things go. I don't want to rush things and end up doing things I might regret later on. Yea...just a bit of insight I guess. AH, it's only 10PM but it feels like...12 or later. I feel oh so tired and my parents are bitching oh so much. I think I'll shower as soon as my bro finishes and then sleep. I can't wait til tomorrow to accomplish my goal ! I had better do it. I hope my timings tomorrow are a tad bit better...IT DON'T MATTER. I'MA DO IT ANYWAYS ;O ! I totally got this. I can't wait til Friday-a nice relaxing afternoon at MF. Seeing my two besties and just...chilling, for once. I hope I don't spend too much money-I'm going broke like everyone else. I need to save up money. For what ? I aint so sure. But having money is way better than being broke, right ? Right.
Ah, stomach pains are coming back. Time for my meds. I hope it goes away, seriously. Til tomorrow ? Maaybe.
-AK.
Three people who make my day.
No matter how I'm feeling,
Or what I'm doing-
They make me forget everything
And just enjoy the time I spend with them.
Where would I be without them ?
(have fun guessing, vicky)
Day 42 - a long one.
OHMYGOD. I was supposed to update yesterday-had loads to tell-but I kinda...fell asleep. My mom told me to go shower as soon as I "started" my US History homework. The sad thing was, that was the first and only homework I started last night. So, I think I'll update for yesterday first (from what my poor memory can...remember) and then do a separate thing for today. Sounds fair. Let's get started.
October 19th:
So, a Monday. How lovely. If you hear me saying this, you'd notice that my voice is practically dripping with sarcasm. The morning was the usual, boring English, even more dull AP Bio, and scary Calculus. English was...ugh to say the least. My first assignment of the MP, and I didn't do it. What a great way to start. AP Bio was really...there's actually no way to describe how BORING it is. All we really did was just...take the quiz, hand in lab reports and take notes. Nothing interesting in the material we're doing. I don't know if it's the fact that it's AP Bio, or it's my teacher. Or it could be me, that's another possibility. AP Calc was hectic. Actually more...scary ? I don't know the proper word to describe how I was feeling. I was SOO anticipating my test...it was horrible. He said, "10 people passed, while 20 people failed." My mouth just dropped open. When I got my test back, I almost had an attack. I failed, with a 52. That's all you really need to know. Except...my teacher's 5 looked like a freakin' radical sign. So for a good minute or two, I thought my score for that test was the square root of two. I could've cried, I could've yanked my hair out. But instead, I just froze with a look of pure shock on my face. I mean, I thought I did pretty well on this test compared to the last one. I filled out more questions ! An improvement. But the fact that lots of people failed kind of made my 52 look a tad bit better. Just a tad. But then I was brought to shame again. Even with a curve, I failed. A damn 61. He couldn't give us a higher curve. Oh, darn. Maybe on my next test on PTC night. YAY. Sike.
But, I was looking forward to P.E. Don't ask why. I wasn't looking forward to climbing the five flights of stairs, so don't think I'm going totally crazy just yet-close enough though. I was genuinely interested in what we were doing for P.E. On my way to the lockers-I decided to take the South staircase today-I saw him. I think he has class on the first floor, cause I was on the second and he was coming UP. Either that, or the basement. No greetings. I didn't even realize it was him til I was thinking...about stuffs. Then I change rather quickly, do my business and head for the East side staircases-since those are the only ones that lead to the eighth floor. I see Simeon running up the stairs and the senior guy with his friend. Good thing Simeon told me to wait for him on the third floor from now on, so we can suffer climbing up the flights LOL.
Gym was kinda fun (I will never admit it to anyone in my cluster, but yes, I think aerobics is kinda fun). The rhythm we had going on while doing basic steps was enough to get me going. After that, the day was so dull and boring that I don't even want to say what happened. But I passed my US History...quiz I think it was. Darn, I was hoping it was a test. Oh well, there's the next one ! Must do better. THEN FINALLY, my school day ends. Yaay. I'm on my way to MF to see Vicky and Elver. It's been almost a week since I've seen Vicky and I HAVE NO IDEA HOW LONG since I've seen Elver. I gave him a nice big hug ~ But he was all sweaty..ick ;P It was refreshing to see all the Midwood people: Helen, Raymond, Janet, and more. Well, with some exceptions. They sort of remind me that some Tech people aren't so bad. But MF was fun. Elver and Vicky made me smile and sort of my goofy-self. The goofy-self that won't show too much in Tech; only on rare occasions. But we had...fun (: I was planning to take the train but Elver said, "The bus is faster !" So, the bus it was. Oh the bus, Raymond was asked some random question involving Physics. It was total logic but he was stumped. And he's in AP. Unbelievable. We had a hilarious time (: I took them as far as the train station and we just chilled while waiting for the train. I'm not too informative 'cause it's...kind of private ? What I do with Midwood people, stay with them. That's the only form of privacy I have from Tech so I want to sort of treasure it ? I think that's the word I'm looking for, if not something like that.
I went home, had dinner and stuff. I just started my US History homework and my mom tells me to shower. It was 10:30PM. My dad has this shower curfew for me('cause my parents' room is right next to the bathroom and the shower's kinda noisy ?) at 11PM. The only reason why I don't want to shower so "early" is 'cause I feel tired and sleepy after a shower. Guess what ? I fell asleep. Slept like a damn rock til 6:30AM. The first thing I thought when my mom woke me up was "Shit." I went to school with no homework and no recollection of the previous night's events. I felt so...lost. It was just one of those days, again.
Now might be a good time to start Tuesday's post (:
Last I was typing, I was lost and screwed. I was lucky I had no AP Bio homework, otherwise I'd be really screwed. So the first English(that's rare) and AP Calc and US History homeworks of the MP, I'm missing. Godammit. Today was pretty hohum compared to yesterday. I didn't see the senior, I didn't see my best friend ): Vicky don't count cause she's almost as close as a lover ♥ SEE, YOU'RE SPECIAL, VICKY (; !
It's like freaking 2:30AM and I think I should get off my computer and do my Calc homework and hopefully get some sleep. I'm hoping tomorrow will be interesting and I can have some sort of balance in my life. Like, seriously, I'm dying...and my feet are cold.
Good night / morning ?
-AK.
It's all in the will power.
The compassion and strength you feel
When you're with that person.
(not necessarily a "lover" kind of thing. i'll be more sappy romantic tomorrow, maybe :P)
October 19th:
So, a Monday. How lovely. If you hear me saying this, you'd notice that my voice is practically dripping with sarcasm. The morning was the usual, boring English, even more dull AP Bio, and scary Calculus. English was...ugh to say the least. My first assignment of the MP, and I didn't do it. What a great way to start. AP Bio was really...there's actually no way to describe how BORING it is. All we really did was just...take the quiz, hand in lab reports and take notes. Nothing interesting in the material we're doing. I don't know if it's the fact that it's AP Bio, or it's my teacher. Or it could be me, that's another possibility. AP Calc was hectic. Actually more...scary ? I don't know the proper word to describe how I was feeling. I was SOO anticipating my test...it was horrible. He said, "10 people passed, while 20 people failed." My mouth just dropped open. When I got my test back, I almost had an attack. I failed, with a 52. That's all you really need to know. Except...my teacher's 5 looked like a freakin' radical sign. So for a good minute or two, I thought my score for that test was the square root of two. I could've cried, I could've yanked my hair out. But instead, I just froze with a look of pure shock on my face. I mean, I thought I did pretty well on this test compared to the last one. I filled out more questions ! An improvement. But the fact that lots of people failed kind of made my 52 look a tad bit better. Just a tad. But then I was brought to shame again. Even with a curve, I failed. A damn 61. He couldn't give us a higher curve. Oh, darn. Maybe on my next test on PTC night. YAY. Sike.
But, I was looking forward to P.E. Don't ask why. I wasn't looking forward to climbing the five flights of stairs, so don't think I'm going totally crazy just yet-close enough though. I was genuinely interested in what we were doing for P.E. On my way to the lockers-I decided to take the South staircase today-I saw him. I think he has class on the first floor, cause I was on the second and he was coming UP. Either that, or the basement. No greetings. I didn't even realize it was him til I was thinking...about stuffs. Then I change rather quickly, do my business and head for the East side staircases-since those are the only ones that lead to the eighth floor. I see Simeon running up the stairs and the senior guy with his friend. Good thing Simeon told me to wait for him on the third floor from now on, so we can suffer climbing up the flights LOL.
Gym was kinda fun (I will never admit it to anyone in my cluster, but yes, I think aerobics is kinda fun). The rhythm we had going on while doing basic steps was enough to get me going. After that, the day was so dull and boring that I don't even want to say what happened. But I passed my US History...quiz I think it was. Darn, I was hoping it was a test. Oh well, there's the next one ! Must do better. THEN FINALLY, my school day ends. Yaay. I'm on my way to MF to see Vicky and Elver. It's been almost a week since I've seen Vicky and I HAVE NO IDEA HOW LONG since I've seen Elver. I gave him a nice big hug ~ But he was all sweaty..ick ;P It was refreshing to see all the Midwood people: Helen, Raymond, Janet, and more. Well, with some exceptions. They sort of remind me that some Tech people aren't so bad. But MF was fun. Elver and Vicky made me smile and sort of my goofy-self. The goofy-self that won't show too much in Tech; only on rare occasions. But we had...fun (: I was planning to take the train but Elver said, "The bus is faster !" So, the bus it was. Oh the bus, Raymond was asked some random question involving Physics. It was total logic but he was stumped. And he's in AP. Unbelievable. We had a hilarious time (: I took them as far as the train station and we just chilled while waiting for the train. I'm not too informative 'cause it's...kind of private ? What I do with Midwood people, stay with them. That's the only form of privacy I have from Tech so I want to sort of treasure it ? I think that's the word I'm looking for, if not something like that.
I went home, had dinner and stuff. I just started my US History homework and my mom tells me to shower. It was 10:30PM. My dad has this shower curfew for me('cause my parents' room is right next to the bathroom and the shower's kinda noisy ?) at 11PM. The only reason why I don't want to shower so "early" is 'cause I feel tired and sleepy after a shower. Guess what ? I fell asleep. Slept like a damn rock til 6:30AM. The first thing I thought when my mom woke me up was "Shit." I went to school with no homework and no recollection of the previous night's events. I felt so...lost. It was just one of those days, again.
Now might be a good time to start Tuesday's post (:
October 20th:
Last I was typing, I was lost and screwed. I was lucky I had no AP Bio homework, otherwise I'd be really screwed. So the first English(that's rare) and AP Calc and US History homeworks of the MP, I'm missing. Godammit. Today was pretty hohum compared to yesterday. I didn't see the senior, I didn't see my best friend ): Vicky don't count cause she's almost as close as a lover ♥ SEE, YOU'RE SPECIAL, VICKY (; !
It's like freaking 2:30AM and I think I should get off my computer and do my Calc homework and hopefully get some sleep. I'm hoping tomorrow will be interesting and I can have some sort of balance in my life. Like, seriously, I'm dying...and my feet are cold.
Good night / morning ?
-AK.
It's all in the will power.
The compassion and strength you feel
When you're with that person.
(not necessarily a "lover" kind of thing. i'll be more sappy romantic tomorrow, maybe :P)
Sunday, October 18, 2009
wait a second.
Just so vicky doesn't feel left out.
Damn, do I miss her. It's been about a week since I've seen her. And I been doing horrible from not seeing her. I want to see her again. I want to see her laugh, hear that stupid burp of hers ♥ BUT SHE SORTA LEFT ME. She fell asleep with Mr. Walton Yip today and...yea. I didn't even know she was out today ): I was told she doesn't have internet today so...yea. We go MF tomorrow. And maybe walk home depending on the weather. Also, I get to see Elver.
MAN, it's been ages since I last saw him. I need to spend more time with these two people ~ Ah, Midwood, why did I leave you, and people, for Tech ? Why, oh why. I guess in a way there are some good points to this. Shows me who my true friends are. Helps me grow, as a person, I guess. I don't exactly have any regrets at this point about transferring schools.
Yea, I just felt like adding that. Ah, I didn't write up that thingy I wanted to. Oh, darn. Time to shower and then hopefully, Calculus homework. Shit. I'm getting my test back tomorrow. Let's hope for a GOOD and passing grade. I hope. I pray.
I really need to start studying, OD.
-AK.
Damn, do I miss her. It's been about a week since I've seen her. And I been doing horrible from not seeing her. I want to see her again. I want to see her laugh, hear that stupid burp of hers ♥ BUT SHE SORTA LEFT ME. She fell asleep with Mr. Walton Yip today and...yea. I didn't even know she was out today ): I was told she doesn't have internet today so...yea. We go MF tomorrow. And maybe walk home depending on the weather. Also, I get to see Elver.
MAN, it's been ages since I last saw him. I need to spend more time with these two people ~ Ah, Midwood, why did I leave you, and people, for Tech ? Why, oh why. I guess in a way there are some good points to this. Shows me who my true friends are. Helps me grow, as a person, I guess. I don't exactly have any regrets at this point about transferring schools.
Yea, I just felt like adding that. Ah, I didn't write up that thingy I wanted to. Oh, darn. Time to shower and then hopefully, Calculus homework. Shit. I'm getting my test back tomorrow. Let's hope for a GOOD and passing grade. I hope. I pray.
I really need to start studying, OD.
-AK.
Day 40 - dull weekend.
I just realized, there's not much to update over the weekends. I just finished my US homework with a classmate...and now onto Calculus ! Damn, I miss a lot of people. I get to see most or all of them tomorrow ! Yay me. I hope it's a good day. It's warmer...so it had better be.
AP Bio quiz, math homework and I think I'm done ? Oh, wait. there's that Physics homework due Tuesday...hmm I better remember that tomorrow. Otherwise...it's not a good start for the second MP ;x
Well, that's all for now. More tomorrow, definitely. I think before I get off the computer completely, I'll start writing even though I think I should be doing my math homework with a classmate...LOL -__-
Til tomorrow (: !
-AK.
AP Bio quiz, math homework and I think I'm done ? Oh, wait. there's that Physics homework due Tuesday...hmm I better remember that tomorrow. Otherwise...it's not a good start for the second MP ;x
Well, that's all for now. More tomorrow, definitely. I think before I get off the computer completely, I'll start writing even though I think I should be doing my math homework with a classmate...LOL -__-
Til tomorrow (: !
-AK.
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Day 38 - a better day. (:
Today was really cold. And dull. And nerve-racking. Not seeing the people I want to see, it makes me...unbalanced ? Something like that I think. The bright side is, after I took some horrible tasting Chinese meds, I felt a whole lo tless queasy and no urgent runs to the bathroom. Who knew that what my mom said was actually true...I should've taken it earlier and saved myself a load of pain. But nooo, I had to suck it up like and idiot and deal. Next time, I'll remember to listen to my mommy.
As usual, my morning was pretty bad. Two English quizzes in one day. I was only told of one quiz that I didn't even bother studying for. It was either I pass a silly English quiz (that everyone failed anyways) or I pass my Calculus test (which I think I did horrible on). AP Bio was extremely boring. It's either I'm struggling or it's so boring I can't stand it. Maybe it's the teacher...I don't know. I just remember I was studying for my Calculus test in Bio. Ahaha. We were just discussing last week's lab..took some notes and that's it. I freaked during the test. The shit I studied, derivatives of trig functions, implicit differentiation, last exam, and stuff were barely on the test. Or maybe I had bad memory. I hate sitting in front of the teacher. He watches me for almost the whole double period. He knows I failed the last test and told me the other day, "If you do well on this test, I won't call your mom." I don't know if I already said this, but yea. After that was P.E. ! So far, my favorite class, but not for long, sadly.
Today was the final game of volleyball, Team 1 vs. Team 4. It was a close game. Team 1 was tough. But we won ! Most teams, as I think I have mentioned, have ball hoggers or people who either can't play or won't play. My teacher from last year had said volleyball in a way says something about your character. If you take the risk and say "I got it !" and go for the ball without falling back, then that means you're the type of person who's not afraid of taking chances. Or something proverbial like that. I really enjoyed the game though; we had longer volleys so it was way more fun. Usually with the other teams, the volleys are a lot shorter and all we do is score points...no fun at all. But team 1 is different. They actually work together as a team unlike all the others so that everyone has fun, whether we win or lose. But winning feels good too (:< ! Ugh, fitness on eighth floor next semester :/ I TOTALLY CAN'T WAIT .___. !
So, nothing interesting after gym ~ Except lunch, where I got to kick Thomas's ass, sort of. He wouldn't stfu about the senior guy. He kept saying how he looks like a girl, blahblah, hair is longer than mine-WHICH IS NOT-blah blah. I wanted to say, "At least he's manlier than you, still." It was delayed, but mean, so I shut up. I didn't want him saying more. Although I think his arm was perfectly bruised...-evil grin- He totally deserved it though. Honestly, I can't tell this "boy" anything without him blabbing it to the whole damn world. Nawanlany already knows, sorta, and now I think Simeon's going to try and figure it out. I sort of don't care, cause they both don't know him all that well, but still. Oh well, we had a nice-ish Facebook convo just now. I don't know how I would define nice, ahaha. He replied, I happy. Some jerkasses don't reply at all, so yea. (:
It is currently 1AM, now but for the sake of my blog, I'm going to lie about the time I posted it :X My two best friends of all time from Midwood just made my night. I miss Vicky so damn much; I think this is the longest time I've gone without seeing her physically. I wonder if she's doing good. I want to be there to make her smile if she's down and stuff. I think she's doing fine, or I hope so. I can only be here for her, no matter what. She sent me so many YouTube videos. She's so lucky I have headphones and my parents decided to sleep early tonight (: I think I favorited most of them ahaha x] My next best friend of all time is male and his name is Elver Ho. He did this anagram thing on Facebook and it said: Revel Ho. Ah if only his name was Elber, that'd be funny: Rebel Ho. It started from there. Then we had a nice convo on AIM, totally made my night. ♥ It's our little secret (; We sorta confessed our love to each other, as best friends AHAHA. I probably know what Vicky was thinking. She'll be so hurt if I didn't tell her xD It was OH SO HARD for him, even online he said. Pft, there goes his hug :P Aw, I was gonna call him gay, but I told him I'd stop ): So as of now, he's my best friend ♥ Second from Vicky ;D These two people are irreplaceable in my life, no matter where I go, what new people I meet, what school I attend, I can never ever forget them. I love you guys :]
Well, it's time for me to go to bed, I guess. Ack, my stomach's sort of acting up now. Aw man, it was fine most of the day ): I hope I don't wake up a few hours later and end up crying from the pain. Oh ! Speaking of crying...
I think I remember what I wanted to say yesterday. I ran into some of my Midwood friends who were going to the college fair. It made me realize that I truly miss my Midwood friends...that thought sort of made me lonely. Everyone was so updated with their lives, and school stuff. I feel so left out when they talk about things that I can't exactly contribute to. It's nice to know how they're doing-because I asked, LOL-but still. Even with friends and stuff at Tech, I still feel like Midwood is a part of me. It's a part of my histroy, that's for sure. But this thought kind of makes me sad. I felt like crying, for no apparent reason. I was just talking about the crying thing with Louise the other day. We both hate the fact that as girls, we're so emotional. Whenever we have time to just sit and think, the tears just sort of come. That's how it is for me. I remember during one of all my all-nighters, I was just sitting in my bed, thinking about nothing specific...and then I felt myself crying. I don't know what came over me, I don't remember what I was thinking about at the time. I just remember me crying for quite some time.
I don't know...Vicky and Elver, I don't mean to worry you guys or anything. I just felt like getting that out, for some odd reason. OH WELL, time to sleep (: ! It's 1:30 AM :X
Good night !
-AK.
And sometimes
When something's bugging us
We don't know what is it
We don't know what's wrong.
So we just
Let it all out.
Relieve the pressure.
As usual, my morning was pretty bad. Two English quizzes in one day. I was only told of one quiz that I didn't even bother studying for. It was either I pass a silly English quiz (that everyone failed anyways) or I pass my Calculus test (which I think I did horrible on). AP Bio was extremely boring. It's either I'm struggling or it's so boring I can't stand it. Maybe it's the teacher...I don't know. I just remember I was studying for my Calculus test in Bio. Ahaha. We were just discussing last week's lab..took some notes and that's it. I freaked during the test. The shit I studied, derivatives of trig functions, implicit differentiation, last exam, and stuff were barely on the test. Or maybe I had bad memory. I hate sitting in front of the teacher. He watches me for almost the whole double period. He knows I failed the last test and told me the other day, "If you do well on this test, I won't call your mom." I don't know if I already said this, but yea. After that was P.E. ! So far, my favorite class, but not for long, sadly.
Today was the final game of volleyball, Team 1 vs. Team 4. It was a close game. Team 1 was tough. But we won ! Most teams, as I think I have mentioned, have ball hoggers or people who either can't play or won't play. My teacher from last year had said volleyball in a way says something about your character. If you take the risk and say "I got it !" and go for the ball without falling back, then that means you're the type of person who's not afraid of taking chances. Or something proverbial like that. I really enjoyed the game though; we had longer volleys so it was way more fun. Usually with the other teams, the volleys are a lot shorter and all we do is score points...no fun at all. But team 1 is different. They actually work together as a team unlike all the others so that everyone has fun, whether we win or lose. But winning feels good too (:< ! Ugh, fitness on eighth floor next semester :/ I TOTALLY CAN'T WAIT .___. !
So, nothing interesting after gym ~ Except lunch, where I got to kick Thomas's ass, sort of. He wouldn't stfu about the senior guy. He kept saying how he looks like a girl, blahblah, hair is longer than mine-WHICH IS NOT-blah blah. I wanted to say, "At least he's manlier than you, still." It was delayed, but mean, so I shut up. I didn't want him saying more. Although I think his arm was perfectly bruised...-evil grin- He totally deserved it though. Honestly, I can't tell this "boy" anything without him blabbing it to the whole damn world. Nawanlany already knows, sorta, and now I think Simeon's going to try and figure it out. I sort of don't care, cause they both don't know him all that well, but still. Oh well, we had a nice-ish Facebook convo just now. I don't know how I would define nice, ahaha. He replied, I happy. Some jerkasses don't reply at all, so yea. (:
It is currently 1AM, now but for the sake of my blog, I'm going to lie about the time I posted it :X My two best friends of all time from Midwood just made my night. I miss Vicky so damn much; I think this is the longest time I've gone without seeing her physically. I wonder if she's doing good. I want to be there to make her smile if she's down and stuff. I think she's doing fine, or I hope so. I can only be here for her, no matter what. She sent me so many YouTube videos. She's so lucky I have headphones and my parents decided to sleep early tonight (: I think I favorited most of them ahaha x] My next best friend of all time is male and his name is Elver Ho. He did this anagram thing on Facebook and it said: Revel Ho. Ah if only his name was Elber, that'd be funny: Rebel Ho. It started from there. Then we had a nice convo on AIM, totally made my night. ♥ It's our little secret (; We sorta confessed our love to each other, as best friends AHAHA. I probably know what Vicky was thinking. She'll be so hurt if I didn't tell her xD It was OH SO HARD for him, even online he said. Pft, there goes his hug :P Aw, I was gonna call him gay, but I told him I'd stop ): So as of now, he's my best friend ♥ Second from Vicky ;D These two people are irreplaceable in my life, no matter where I go, what new people I meet, what school I attend, I can never ever forget them. I love you guys :]
Well, it's time for me to go to bed, I guess. Ack, my stomach's sort of acting up now. Aw man, it was fine most of the day ): I hope I don't wake up a few hours later and end up crying from the pain. Oh ! Speaking of crying...
I think I remember what I wanted to say yesterday. I ran into some of my Midwood friends who were going to the college fair. It made me realize that I truly miss my Midwood friends...that thought sort of made me lonely. Everyone was so updated with their lives, and school stuff. I feel so left out when they talk about things that I can't exactly contribute to. It's nice to know how they're doing-because I asked, LOL-but still. Even with friends and stuff at Tech, I still feel like Midwood is a part of me. It's a part of my histroy, that's for sure. But this thought kind of makes me sad. I felt like crying, for no apparent reason. I was just talking about the crying thing with Louise the other day. We both hate the fact that as girls, we're so emotional. Whenever we have time to just sit and think, the tears just sort of come. That's how it is for me. I remember during one of all my all-nighters, I was just sitting in my bed, thinking about nothing specific...and then I felt myself crying. I don't know what came over me, I don't remember what I was thinking about at the time. I just remember me crying for quite some time.
I don't know...Vicky and Elver, I don't mean to worry you guys or anything. I just felt like getting that out, for some odd reason. OH WELL, time to sleep (: ! It's 1:30 AM :X
Good night !
-AK.
And sometimes
When something's bugging us
We don't know what is it
We don't know what's wrong.
So we just
Let it all out.
Relieve the pressure.
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Day 37 - niice...still sick.
Ah yes. I said I'd update yesterday, didn't I ? Well, I lied. So sorry. I sort of fell asleep, the usual. I was planning to stay up for my calculus homework but then my dad was bitching about me getting some sleep. I guess the sleep sort of paid off. My team, team 4, is tied with team 1 for first place. Champ game is tomorrow. We totally have to beat them...more on that later ? Yes, definitely.
Today was a rather interesting day, in my opinion. Not a really interesting school day, but an okay day overall. I had to go to the weight training room today to give in my late homework to D'Augusta. Thank goodness she took it D: I was late to English, but I could've cared less. I might be passing that class but that doesn't mean I like it. BUT SOMETHING TOTALLY MADE MY MORNING. TEACHER WASN'T HERE. I think I cheered for joy. I just remember something echoing in the hallway...whoops. I was practically grinning when I walked into the room. I have no idea why it made me so happy-I think I was super glad I didn't have to suffer through seeing her icky left eye :X It just...creeps me out. And me sitting on her left side dont exactly help.
So, that's first period for ya. AP Bio was extremely boring today. I spent the whole period and a half doing my Calculus homework after the quiz, that I totally passed. I hope. AP Calculus was actually kind of fun today. I didn't fall asleep, I didn't feel like breaking down and I didn't burst into tears-mentally. It's an improvement :D ! I actually get most of the stuff we did today. Well, I have no idea if that's good, since it's not going to be on the test tomorrow. Yes, I have a test which I should be studying for...later. I'm sort of in the process of doing that and my US History homework and blogging. It's called multi-tasking. More like if I get bored with one thing, I move onto something else. Ahaha, very bad...strategy ? Yea, that should be the word. So, after math was P.E. ! I actually love P.E. now 'cause of the volleyball unit. OH ! I asked D'Augusta what we have next MP, and we have...eighth floor gym, fitness. LIKEOHMYGOD. I have second floor math...and I need to go to the eighth floor ? Oh, hell. Well I did it last year...for a MP. I should last. I hope I lose OD weight. I need it :X I been feeling so...fat and lazy since summer, or since school started. It's not a good thing, really.
Ah, P.E. My team totally rocked today. We went up against team 6, one of the lousy teams with ball-hoggers. Once you get to know the teams after playing a couple of games with them and you know who the ball hoggers are, it's really easy to win if you have some sort of skill in volleyball. Just aim the ball for the non-ball-hoggers, or the empty corners they leave unguarded. Piece of cake to score points and win. After a while, all those mistakes and points add up and WAH-LA ! we win. It was sort of close; we won by about 5 points or so, I think. Or maybe a tad bit less. But we won, nonetheless. (: THEN, came the "big" announcement ? Coach D'Augusta told us our rankings and what final games had to be played to determine the final rankings. Guess what ? Team 1 and Team 4 are tied for first place. That's right. My team and Mr. Senior's team have a championship game tomorrow. It's going to be tough. I need my sleep today. I really want to win, but most importantly, have fun. It won't be fun if I'm stressed from lack of sleep and AP Calc test, now will it ? Although...I have the test before P.E...NO WORRIES. I got this. I can do this. Oh yes, I told Mr. Brian Nawalany (I think that's his last name-too lazy to go on Facebook and check) about the senior. We had a...nice conversation about it. I guess you can call it nice ? It was more encouraging than others though. I sort of needed that. THANKS, MAN (: But today in class, he kept bugging me and asking me who it was. I tried "running away" from him. Wasted effort. I was actually trying to waste time before our game so he could get off court and I could avoid tellig him :P It's not that hard to figure out today, actually. Only two Asian dudes in the senior class, one was unprepared and one wasn't. "They're both kinda cute, which one is it !?" Ah, he makes me laugh (:
OH did I mention, he gave me an idea for a one-shot today ! A really pervy one :X He made me play the Nervous Game today. It was...nerve-racking o.o ? Apparently, I-a virgin-lasted longer than a non-virgin, according to him. But that gave me an extremely perverted idea for a one-shot story. It's no like me, so I might just drop it and write it some other time when I'm more...experienced. OH, and another idea hit me-almost literally-as I was exiting the locker room and going to Physics. It's weird, I decided to take a differetn route today. Instead of heading for the East side, I went for the West today. Somewhat of a mistake, I guess. I usually don't see him on the East side, maybe cause he's usually behind me, so today I went to the West side. Saw him, didn't say hi. It's not that I'm rude or shy or anything-this time. I just didn't notice it was him, until it was too late-HONESTLY ! So smart of me, right (: ? But, I have no idea how, it gave me an idea. It's going to be a sweet little one-shot also. Ah, me an one-shots. I should really try to finish/start a longer thing. I love how random inspirations give me so...many ideas. It's funny though, every time I start writing about someone or something new, the inspiration dies-just like that. Maybe I should hurry up and write this one instead of delaying like I always do. Just maybe, if I break my habit, something might happen. I can always hope, whether it's hopeless or not. I don't care; I have time on my hands for a social life...sort of.
ENOUGH ABOUT THAT, let's move on ? I guess there aint much to move on about...huh. So let's fast forward to when I got home, woke up from an hour nap-accidentally fell asleep, as always-and brought my brother from karate to Kumon. Poor soul. I ran into my best friend from middle school, Wendy Yu ! It was so refreshing to see her. It's been ages, literally. We've been through middle school together and freshman year. That was it. Kind of sad. After that I also saw a couple of my Midwood friends: Amy Guan, Cindy Yu, and Nicole Ng. Yes, Nicole, you're last 'cause of your lie cha. Don't ask how or why, it just is (: So there we were, standing like idiots in the cold. Well, I could've gone home, since they were waiting for the bus to go to the College Fair, but I felt like being a loser today, so I waited with them. Cindy said Vicky was coming along on the train...SOME TIME SOON. What lies. She was so slow, I swear :O She came just when the bus did ): Wait a sec, there was some funny things I wanted to say about/to the group that I was waiting with...I totally forgot. I was going to say something witty and tell them that there'll be something to LOL at in my post...huh. I forgot. Damn my horrible memory for the witty sutffs ): Let's continue ? Ahaha. It was kind of weird, Vicky was running towards me and practically tackled me...in the cold rain. Well, she looked happy, so I was happy (:
I think that pretty much wraps up my day and my update. Stupid stomach pains are a real...pain in the ass. I'm gonna take some meds, study for Calculus (jeez, I'm so repetitive), sleep and maybe do that US History homework. I wonder if it counts for the first or second MP. I'm hoping for the first, so I can get a "fresh" start on the second. First MP = getting used to this shitty year and second MP = improving and third MP = the real deal. My idea of the school's first semester.
Ah, that's that. Wish me luck ?
-AK.
"I need you to know,
You're something that I can't let go.
I'm really trying to let this relationship grow,"
I want you to know that
I'm here for you."
I Need You; Adrenaline ♥
Today was a rather interesting day, in my opinion. Not a really interesting school day, but an okay day overall. I had to go to the weight training room today to give in my late homework to D'Augusta. Thank goodness she took it D: I was late to English, but I could've cared less. I might be passing that class but that doesn't mean I like it. BUT SOMETHING TOTALLY MADE MY MORNING. TEACHER WASN'T HERE. I think I cheered for joy. I just remember something echoing in the hallway...whoops. I was practically grinning when I walked into the room. I have no idea why it made me so happy-I think I was super glad I didn't have to suffer through seeing her icky left eye :X It just...creeps me out. And me sitting on her left side dont exactly help.
So, that's first period for ya. AP Bio was extremely boring today. I spent the whole period and a half doing my Calculus homework after the quiz, that I totally passed. I hope. AP Calculus was actually kind of fun today. I didn't fall asleep, I didn't feel like breaking down and I didn't burst into tears-mentally. It's an improvement :D ! I actually get most of the stuff we did today. Well, I have no idea if that's good, since it's not going to be on the test tomorrow. Yes, I have a test which I should be studying for...later. I'm sort of in the process of doing that and my US History homework and blogging. It's called multi-tasking. More like if I get bored with one thing, I move onto something else. Ahaha, very bad...strategy ? Yea, that should be the word. So, after math was P.E. ! I actually love P.E. now 'cause of the volleyball unit. OH ! I asked D'Augusta what we have next MP, and we have...eighth floor gym, fitness. LIKEOHMYGOD. I have second floor math...and I need to go to the eighth floor ? Oh, hell. Well I did it last year...for a MP. I should last. I hope I lose OD weight. I need it :X I been feeling so...fat and lazy since summer, or since school started. It's not a good thing, really.
Ah, P.E. My team totally rocked today. We went up against team 6, one of the lousy teams with ball-hoggers. Once you get to know the teams after playing a couple of games with them and you know who the ball hoggers are, it's really easy to win if you have some sort of skill in volleyball. Just aim the ball for the non-ball-hoggers, or the empty corners they leave unguarded. Piece of cake to score points and win. After a while, all those mistakes and points add up and WAH-LA ! we win. It was sort of close; we won by about 5 points or so, I think. Or maybe a tad bit less. But we won, nonetheless. (: THEN, came the "big" announcement ? Coach D'Augusta told us our rankings and what final games had to be played to determine the final rankings. Guess what ? Team 1 and Team 4 are tied for first place. That's right. My team and Mr. Senior's team have a championship game tomorrow. It's going to be tough. I need my sleep today. I really want to win, but most importantly, have fun. It won't be fun if I'm stressed from lack of sleep and AP Calc test, now will it ? Although...I have the test before P.E...NO WORRIES. I got this. I can do this. Oh yes, I told Mr. Brian Nawalany (I think that's his last name-too lazy to go on Facebook and check) about the senior. We had a...nice conversation about it. I guess you can call it nice ? It was more encouraging than others though. I sort of needed that. THANKS, MAN (: But today in class, he kept bugging me and asking me who it was. I tried "running away" from him. Wasted effort. I was actually trying to waste time before our game so he could get off court and I could avoid tellig him :P It's not that hard to figure out today, actually. Only two Asian dudes in the senior class, one was unprepared and one wasn't. "They're both kinda cute, which one is it !?" Ah, he makes me laugh (:
OH did I mention, he gave me an idea for a one-shot today ! A really pervy one :X He made me play the Nervous Game today. It was...nerve-racking o.o ? Apparently, I-a virgin-lasted longer than a non-virgin, according to him. But that gave me an extremely perverted idea for a one-shot story. It's no like me, so I might just drop it and write it some other time when I'm more...experienced. OH, and another idea hit me-almost literally-as I was exiting the locker room and going to Physics. It's weird, I decided to take a differetn route today. Instead of heading for the East side, I went for the West today. Somewhat of a mistake, I guess. I usually don't see him on the East side, maybe cause he's usually behind me, so today I went to the West side. Saw him, didn't say hi. It's not that I'm rude or shy or anything-this time. I just didn't notice it was him, until it was too late-HONESTLY ! So smart of me, right (: ? But, I have no idea how, it gave me an idea. It's going to be a sweet little one-shot also. Ah, me an one-shots. I should really try to finish/start a longer thing. I love how random inspirations give me so...many ideas. It's funny though, every time I start writing about someone or something new, the inspiration dies-just like that. Maybe I should hurry up and write this one instead of delaying like I always do. Just maybe, if I break my habit, something might happen. I can always hope, whether it's hopeless or not. I don't care; I have time on my hands for a social life...sort of.
ENOUGH ABOUT THAT, let's move on ? I guess there aint much to move on about...huh. So let's fast forward to when I got home, woke up from an hour nap-accidentally fell asleep, as always-and brought my brother from karate to Kumon. Poor soul. I ran into my best friend from middle school, Wendy Yu ! It was so refreshing to see her. It's been ages, literally. We've been through middle school together and freshman year. That was it. Kind of sad. After that I also saw a couple of my Midwood friends: Amy Guan, Cindy Yu, and Nicole Ng. Yes, Nicole, you're last 'cause of your lie cha. Don't ask how or why, it just is (: So there we were, standing like idiots in the cold. Well, I could've gone home, since they were waiting for the bus to go to the College Fair, but I felt like being a loser today, so I waited with them. Cindy said Vicky was coming along on the train...SOME TIME SOON. What lies. She was so slow, I swear :O She came just when the bus did ): Wait a sec, there was some funny things I wanted to say about/to the group that I was waiting with...I totally forgot. I was going to say something witty and tell them that there'll be something to LOL at in my post...huh. I forgot. Damn my horrible memory for the witty sutffs ): Let's continue ? Ahaha. It was kind of weird, Vicky was running towards me and practically tackled me...in the cold rain. Well, she looked happy, so I was happy (:
I think that pretty much wraps up my day and my update. Stupid stomach pains are a real...pain in the ass. I'm gonna take some meds, study for Calculus (jeez, I'm so repetitive), sleep and maybe do that US History homework. I wonder if it counts for the first or second MP. I'm hoping for the first, so I can get a "fresh" start on the second. First MP = getting used to this shitty year and second MP = improving and third MP = the real deal. My idea of the school's first semester.
Ah, that's that. Wish me luck ?
-AK.
"I need you to know,
You're something that I can't let go.
I'm really trying to let this relationship grow,"
I want you to know that
I'm here for you."
I Need You; Adrenaline ♥
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Day 36 - sick.
Okay, updating my blog before I'm even home...nice ? My sister seemed too mad at me this morning for the damn straightener so she might not give me the computer ): ! So I guess I'll update as much as I can now and just post it up whenever I have time at home. That is if I have time at all. Let's go update !
So, school was hectic-ish today. It was the PSAT schedule today and I don't know why but I felt extremely queasy all day. All day, all morning. I told SImeon and he's like: "MORNING SICKNESS !?" I say no way. I am a proud virgin. Yes, you heard me. Moving on. I had a killer headache all day. The whole time during the PSAT, I was prety much suffering. I felt sick. Real sick. Like headache, queasiness, fever-ish sick. All at once. I still feel a tad bit of it now. The funny thing though, it was gone by P.E. but the sick feeling came back as soon as I left the gym. No lie, I am definitely not making this up. I think it was 'cause I was so absorbed in volleyball. I played a game with him today (: ! I felt like an idiot 'cause I was too "shy" to go on his team by myself, so I waited for Alina to finish testing and we both headed for his team with Ronnie. Horrible. I hate making sterotypical impressions. He's probaby thinking: "Oh, she's just a typical Asian girl. Nothing special." He might have these thoughts, he might not. I don't know if I prefer it that he did. If he does, then it means I was right and he was a tad bit interested but then lost interest. If he doesn't, it just means I was wrong and he thought nothing of me from the beginning. Though there's this feeling inside me that tells me he does. As I was leaving the gym today, I looked back and he was turning away. Maybe, just maybe. I think it was sort of good that I didn't stay after to help Valeria. I don't know, we were both walking to the exits rather...slowly. And we both glanced back, just at different times. I sort of did it twice just to make sure. I'm a loser. I know.
I'll be back to update more later. That was supposed to be a personal update. I sort of just strayed off topic, and got lost. Oh well. Be back later, hopefully (: !
-AK.
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So, school was hectic-ish today. It was the PSAT schedule today and I don't know why but I felt extremely queasy all day. All day, all morning. I told SImeon and he's like: "MORNING SICKNESS !?" I say no way. I am a proud virgin. Yes, you heard me. Moving on. I had a killer headache all day. The whole time during the PSAT, I was prety much suffering. I felt sick. Real sick. Like headache, queasiness, fever-ish sick. All at once. I still feel a tad bit of it now. The funny thing though, it was gone by P.E. but the sick feeling came back as soon as I left the gym. No lie, I am definitely not making this up. I think it was 'cause I was so absorbed in volleyball. I played a game with him today (: ! I felt like an idiot 'cause I was too "shy" to go on his team by myself, so I waited for Alina to finish testing and we both headed for his team with Ronnie. Horrible. I hate making sterotypical impressions. He's probaby thinking: "Oh, she's just a typical Asian girl. Nothing special." He might have these thoughts, he might not. I don't know if I prefer it that he did. If he does, then it means I was right and he was a tad bit interested but then lost interest. If he doesn't, it just means I was wrong and he thought nothing of me from the beginning. Though there's this feeling inside me that tells me he does. As I was leaving the gym today, I looked back and he was turning away. Maybe, just maybe. I think it was sort of good that I didn't stay after to help Valeria. I don't know, we were both walking to the exits rather...slowly. And we both glanced back, just at different times. I sort of did it twice just to make sure. I'm a loser. I know.
I'll be back to update more later. That was supposed to be a personal update. I sort of just strayed off topic, and got lost. Oh well. Be back later, hopefully (: !
-AK.
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let'sworkonit. [623]
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Day 35 - Bleck ?
Yes ! Another update ! I'm only on the computer 'cause my sister has finished that darma and is moving onto doing something productive, LIKE STUDYING, maybe. But yes, moving on ~
School was sort of...bleh, today. It was pretty quick though, a whole lot quicker than I anticipated ? I don't know, somewhere along those lines. English was messed up. No one in the group remembered what the heck we did on Friday. It's like weall went out, partied, and came back with a hangover that made us forget everything. Boym did we get in trouble for that. AP Bio just flew by. Literally. We were in such a rush to get the enzymes stuff covered for the quiz on Thursday, I had no idea what the teacher was saying. He had no idea himself. Then came AP Calc. I ACTUALLY GET THE STUFF...somewhat. I feel so proud of myself for the frist time since junior year started. Kind of sad, end of the first MP already. Ugh. But yea, when I went to get the homework from Hung today-I was waiting outside his first period class-he saw me, and was like: OMG why is Angela here !? ANd attempted to runaway. Sort of :D But I just wanted to check some answers 'cause I think I totally got the implicit differentiation ! I feel so smart, for once in my life. No P.E. today. Boohoo. Eh, I'll live :D Physics lab sucked horribly. Our laptop was busted and we switched like three times. In the end we only had ten minutes left so we just went off to copy some other sad group's hard work. Physics was somewhat bleh. The usual, that's it. Lunch was eh. US History was snore.
And that ended my school day (: ! I saw Vicky, and we had fun. Leath followed along. For what reasons, I had no idea. We walked around CT with him until around...3:40 ? Not very productive. Then Vicky and I had our time, some laughs-mostly at me-and then she took me home and that was that. I love making her laugh-even if it is at me-her smile and her laugh automatically makes my day. The fact that I made her crack a smile is enough to keep me going. Other than that...I don't think I have much to say about my day today. Maybe more tomorrow, seeing as I have PSATs...and P.E...and volunteering x.x" Ugh, someone just give me my 50 hours and get it over with. Maybe I should do more days, so I can finish my hours quicker !
So that Vicky can go to sleep earlier, I shall end it here. Most likely :P ? Ah, still got that AP Calc homework. That's the least I should do since I see Mr. Wise tomorrow. AP Bio can wait til tomorrow night...argh. Two of them. I should've done one today ): OHMYGOD. US History test Thursday...AP Bio quiz same day. And math test Friday. Oh dear, must study.
Toodles ~ ?
-AK.
And I think you called
But I couldn't pick up.
I was simply in the wrong place,
At the wrong time.
Now I silently wait, hoping
That it was you.
That it'll ring once again.
Til then, I can only wonder
As I put my phone down.
Wondering and dreaming.
(Totally random. I love jotting down random shit. It's called "expressing yourself" ? You should try it.)
School was sort of...bleh, today. It was pretty quick though, a whole lot quicker than I anticipated ? I don't know, somewhere along those lines. English was messed up. No one in the group remembered what the heck we did on Friday. It's like weall went out, partied, and came back with a hangover that made us forget everything. Boym did we get in trouble for that. AP Bio just flew by. Literally. We were in such a rush to get the enzymes stuff covered for the quiz on Thursday, I had no idea what the teacher was saying. He had no idea himself. Then came AP Calc. I ACTUALLY GET THE STUFF...somewhat. I feel so proud of myself for the frist time since junior year started. Kind of sad, end of the first MP already. Ugh. But yea, when I went to get the homework from Hung today-I was waiting outside his first period class-he saw me, and was like: OMG why is Angela here !? ANd attempted to runaway. Sort of :D But I just wanted to check some answers 'cause I think I totally got the implicit differentiation ! I feel so smart, for once in my life. No P.E. today. Boohoo. Eh, I'll live :D Physics lab sucked horribly. Our laptop was busted and we switched like three times. In the end we only had ten minutes left so we just went off to copy some other sad group's hard work. Physics was somewhat bleh. The usual, that's it. Lunch was eh. US History was snore.
And that ended my school day (: ! I saw Vicky, and we had fun. Leath followed along. For what reasons, I had no idea. We walked around CT with him until around...3:40 ? Not very productive. Then Vicky and I had our time, some laughs-mostly at me-and then she took me home and that was that. I love making her laugh-even if it is at me-her smile and her laugh automatically makes my day. The fact that I made her crack a smile is enough to keep me going. Other than that...I don't think I have much to say about my day today. Maybe more tomorrow, seeing as I have PSATs...and P.E...and volunteering x.x" Ugh, someone just give me my 50 hours and get it over with. Maybe I should do more days, so I can finish my hours quicker !
So that Vicky can go to sleep earlier, I shall end it here. Most likely :P ? Ah, still got that AP Calc homework. That's the least I should do since I see Mr. Wise tomorrow. AP Bio can wait til tomorrow night...argh. Two of them. I should've done one today ): OHMYGOD. US History test Thursday...AP Bio quiz same day. And math test Friday. Oh dear, must study.
Toodles ~ ?
-AK.
And I think you called
But I couldn't pick up.
I was simply in the wrong place,
At the wrong time.
Now I silently wait, hoping
That it was you.
That it'll ring once again.
Til then, I can only wonder
As I put my phone down.
Wondering and dreaming.
(Totally random. I love jotting down random shit. It's called "expressing yourself" ? You should try it.)
Monday, October 12, 2009
Day 34
Wow ! I'm updating in less than 24 hours ? Accomplishment !
Today was a rather quick and boring-ish day. I woke up at around 10:30, or past and got my butt out of bed by 11:15 ? I forgot the exact times. I finished my breakfast at 12:30 and started to clean my closet. Boy, did that take a while. It was...extremely messy. I dug up some old clothes I never thought I'd ever wear, tried it on, and it wasn't too bad. No telling whether or not I'll wear them though. OH ! From all the extra time I had, I actually did my hair. For whatever reason, I don't know exactly. I just felt like it...sort of a practice ? Who knows what was going through my head at the time (:O Maybe a part of me was hoping for the impossible.
Anyways...after I successfully cleaned my closet and sock drawer up-yes, I have one of those-it was time to start homework. It was already around 4PM, so I cooked up some noodles, sat down, and tried to start my homework. My AP Bio homework took a while, actually. Three simple questions and I was stuck on the first one for around 30 minutes, like what the freak ? But I finished with enough time to at least start my AP Calc homework. I only got up to the third problem, got stuck...and it was dinner time. That brings us to the present time, since I finished my chores for the day.
Not much else to say...really. I can't wait to see Vicky tomorrow, give her a big big big hug and that kiss ON THE CHEEK I supposedly owe her. Psh. My best friend, what're you going to do about it (: ? Yesterday, she made me laugh so much. I didn't get to see her but our IM conversation was kind of funny. I showed her some pictures of the guy I was talking about earlier. Her reactions were...hilarious, least to say. Its funny how she can say so much about someone just form a couple of pictures. I think most of her "predictions" were right though. Like for one, she told me to tell him to smile more. He looks better with a smile rather than a frown. But then, who looks good with a frown ? Ahaha, at least Kim Hyun Joong looks sexy when he's smiling or being serious :D I am totally not obsessed, I swear it. :x
I guess that's a wrap for today. Maybe update tomorrow, don't count on it though. I might get lucky and have enough time in between doing my P.E. homework. 10 skills/rules of volleyball and a brief description. Not too brief, was what I was told. Eh. I can do this. I better not forget. Oh ! AP Bio quiz on Thursday and that Calc test on Friday. I better study.
I can't wait to see him. Gotta wait til Wednesday. Four whole days, I'd have to wait. I can do this. Totally...
byebye ~ ? (:
-AK.
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너만 바라만 보고있는 난
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Today was a rather quick and boring-ish day. I woke up at around 10:30, or past and got my butt out of bed by 11:15 ? I forgot the exact times. I finished my breakfast at 12:30 and started to clean my closet. Boy, did that take a while. It was...extremely messy. I dug up some old clothes I never thought I'd ever wear, tried it on, and it wasn't too bad. No telling whether or not I'll wear them though. OH ! From all the extra time I had, I actually did my hair. For whatever reason, I don't know exactly. I just felt like it...sort of a practice ? Who knows what was going through my head at the time (:O Maybe a part of me was hoping for the impossible.
Anyways...after I successfully cleaned my closet and sock drawer up-yes, I have one of those-it was time to start homework. It was already around 4PM, so I cooked up some noodles, sat down, and tried to start my homework. My AP Bio homework took a while, actually. Three simple questions and I was stuck on the first one for around 30 minutes, like what the freak ? But I finished with enough time to at least start my AP Calc homework. I only got up to the third problem, got stuck...and it was dinner time. That brings us to the present time, since I finished my chores for the day.
Not much else to say...really. I can't wait to see Vicky tomorrow, give her a big big big hug and that kiss ON THE CHEEK I supposedly owe her. Psh. My best friend, what're you going to do about it (: ? Yesterday, she made me laugh so much. I didn't get to see her but our IM conversation was kind of funny. I showed her some pictures of the guy I was talking about earlier. Her reactions were...hilarious, least to say. Its funny how she can say so much about someone just form a couple of pictures. I think most of her "predictions" were right though. Like for one, she told me to tell him to smile more. He looks better with a smile rather than a frown. But then, who looks good with a frown ? Ahaha, at least Kim Hyun Joong looks sexy when he's smiling or being serious :D I am totally not obsessed, I swear it. :x
I guess that's a wrap for today. Maybe update tomorrow, don't count on it though. I might get lucky and have enough time in between doing my P.E. homework. 10 skills/rules of volleyball and a brief description. Not too brief, was what I was told. Eh. I can do this. I better not forget. Oh ! AP Bio quiz on Thursday and that Calc test on Friday. I better study.
I can't wait to see him. Gotta wait til Wednesday. Four whole days, I'd have to wait. I can do this. Totally...
byebye ~ ? (:
-AK.
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또 추억조차 없겠지만,
너만 바라만 보고있는 난
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Sunday, October 11, 2009
My Obsession, as of now. KIM HYUN JOONG <3
My current obsession...that's right, it's a Korean drama...Boys Over Flowers. I swear to God, it's not my fault Korean celebrities are so damn...awesome. I just get this fuzzy feeling when I think about Boys Over Flowers. The manga was really interesting in my POV. And now the drama ? Totally awesome.
All the guys are so...hot. I just absolutely love them. The girl...I thought they could've picked someone better but her acting's not so bad. My real obsession lies within the guy on the far right. Kim Hyun Joong, aka Yoon Ji Hoo in the drama. He. Is. Awesome. I swear.
I honestly can't express it in words. I know, you may think of me as one of those crazy fangirls. But I'm not, I promise...he's just so awesome. And he's a part of the boy band, SS501, who sing the song in my blog. I am totally obsessed with this song. It sounds sad, yet there's a silver of hope...somewhere.
I don't know. Some thinking. Some ranting. That'swhat I'm here for. Til tomorrow ? Maybe. No promises though.
-AK.
P.S. Don't worry Vicky, You're still my number one (: So is -ahem- (; byebye ♥
All the guys are so...hot. I just absolutely love them. The girl...I thought they could've picked someone better but her acting's not so bad. My real obsession lies within the guy on the far right. Kim Hyun Joong, aka Yoon Ji Hoo in the drama. He. Is. Awesome. I swear.
Just look at that smile. It's soo..mmm. I love it. I love him (:
He doesn't look bad when he's serious either ~
I don't know. Some thinking. Some ranting. That'swhat I'm here for. Til tomorrow ? Maybe. No promises though.
-AK.
P.S. Don't worry Vicky, You're still my number one (: So is -ahem- (; byebye ♥
Day 33 - rushed update !
So sorry I lied about "tomorrow." but here I am !
Ah yes, that long awaited update. I am so sorry(VICKY) that I didn't update. It's not entirely my fault. I slept the whole time I got home yesterday. I don't even remember what happened last night...weird. But anyway, on with my update ?
I don't really want to talk about school. It's a three-day weekend today and I sort of want to stay away from school. But the only thing you need to know it that I'm failing. Horribly. I really need this three-day weekend to pick myself back up. thankgod for Columbus. Not much else, really. But the personal update's something.
So there's this new guy...who I met in my gym class. He's part of the senior class who's with our junior class, period 7 gym. He has gym five days a week and I only have it four times. I'm sort of sad cause now I can't see him until Wednesday cause I have lab on Tuesdays. Ugh ): Some people know who he is, but I won't let his name out. I don't want people stalking him then going to me and being like: "OMG, HIM !? WTF." Or something along those lines. But he's a senior, yes a senior ! And I found out he's Japanese (: I was partially right, cause he definitely did not look Chinese. Too cute. Most Chinese guys aren't what I would categorize as "cute." Maaaybe "hot" or "total nerd" but nothing else, really. Let's start from the beginning, cause I have no life and I actually remember this stuff ! I'm so proud that I'm making you all read this (:< Well, you could skip it. I'm not forcing you to...but it'd be nice to see that you care so much ):O
We had our first conversation on the first day of school, I think. Gym 8, floor spots. Our teacher, D'Augusta, was out sick so we had a sub. She put us in alphabetical order but didn't separate us by class so I didn't know it was a senior and a junior class. He came in late, I think and looked confused. I was in the back, just sitting there and minding my own business. He asked me what letter I was it and I mumbled a "K." He then sat down right in front of me. Woo. I didn't think much of him at first, really. I thought he was just some ole Asian guy-who happened to be really cute and/or adorable-in my gym class.
A week or two into our volleyball unit, we were divided into teams. The captains were picked and everyone else was allowed to go to whatever team they wished to be on, that way, no one's feelings are hurt. Coach D'Augusta made me laugh. So, I'm standing there on the side with my good volleyball friend, Simeon. We're just standing there like: "ohmygosh, which team?" The senior now, comes up to me and asks: "Do you want to join my team?" I didn't know what to say and just nodded while waving Simeon over. His team looked full but he smiled and shrugged: "Oh, he can come along too." I smiled as all three of us headed towards the team. The games themselves were horrible because I had a few icky ball-hoggers. Remember that Septemer 25th post ? Yea, that was it. The stupid Asian ball-hogger. It wasn't my senior tho, so it was good (:
It was sometime after that, that I finally found out his name. I found out through my friend and I was actually a bit surprised at the name. I was wondering if it was his actual name. Turns out it is. The thing is, it made it a lot easier for me to look for him on Facebook. I am not, by any means, a stalker. I was simply curious. So I went and added him. We just have a short little conversation on Facebook and it was time for him to get off and sleep. Ah, that was when I started my all-nighters. Did I mention I had two of them in a row ? The only thing that really kept me going was probably the coffee...or the itty bitty naps I had. What happened on Thursday really made me happy. I had no idea why but I couldn't stop thinking about it and smiling afterwards.
Thursday was just like any other day. My day only starts to fly by after AP Calculus. In my opinion, I think my gym period goes by a tad bit too fast. Ever since I added him on Facebook, I been meaning to say or wave hi in person. He knows who I am so, it should be okay, no ? But something in me won't do it. I feel too chicken to do it. Why ? This isn't like me. I should just pull myself together and just wave and smile. I guess some part of me is probably scared of him rejecting a little "hi." I tend to have that happen to me a lot. I wave, I get ignored and I feel like an idiot. Who agrees ? SO let's move onto what happened Thursday ? It was just a regular day of gym, and we interacted a bit. More than usual, I guess. So I was a tad bit happy.
The first game that day was between 4 and 6, with team 1 reffing. For the record, I'm team 4 and he's team 1 (: So it was team 4's serve-we were first, yay. I like to serve first so I get to stay in the back for as long as possible. I was serving first and team 1 was on the far right of the court, where the bleachers were. He had a choice of going to spectate on team 6's side or my team's side, but he chose my side. He was practically standing right next to me, except I was on the court and he was off the court. This time I made sure to stand off the court to serve. I remember there was this one incident where I was serving behind the black line, and not the blue line and he and his teammate were practically staring me down/observing me and pointed it out to me. That time, he was also on my side of the court, yay.
I felt so nervous. My heart was pounding. I had no idea why. It just gets me extra nervous when I'm performing and people are just...staring. Luckily, I didn't mess up too badly. Afterwards, my team had to go on the other court for testing with our serves. I was on the other side of the gym and this time, he went on my side too. A couple of glances here and there had me blushing like a little school girl. Well, I felt myself blush and burn up. I think I might be over thinking it a little bit on my end, but who cares. Near the end of class, I went to grab a volleyball and try an over head serve. Everyone was still running around, playing with the volleyballs, so I thought, why not. Amazingly, I got it over the net. The whistle was blown and everyone started to scatter as I was looking to whose head it would land on when I saw him. It turns out, that he stayed and waited to play a one-on-one with me(I think....a girl can hope, can't she ?). He had a nice(and what I thought was genuine-but I don't know)smile on his face, and made me smile too. Too bad that moment couldn't last forever. It was the highlight of my day.
My cousin and my sister says I'm fantasizing too much on this one guy. "There's no hope. You'll never get closer to him or anything, so just give up." I told them, as long as he's even a whee bit interested in me-which is what I'm thinking-I don't care. It might not last. It might not work. But for the time being, I'm happy. At least I'm somewhat set and not the confused little girl I was a couple weeks ago. I don't know...I wish they'd just let me be and let me have my fun. Honestly. I'm single. I've had my ups and downs, so I get to have some fun in my life, right ? Right. After all, we're only young once.
That's all there is to say about him, for now. There's so much more I want to say. Because of these bitches called my sister and my mother, I must get off. It's mostly my sister, actually. She thinks the computer's all hers and she can lay down the rules of when she can have it, and when I can't. It's not fucking fair. I'm the older sibling, I should be the one in charge. All she does it watch dramas all day anyways, so why the fuck should I give it to her ? This is one of the main reasons why I want a laptop. That way, I can have it all to myself. Sometimes I'm so frustrated at my parents for always taking her side, that I lock myself in my room and cry from frustration. Childish, right ? I don't care. It's better than bottling it up, which is what I used to do until I couldn't take it anymore. It actually feels better to let it all out. I just wish my parents would understand, see if from my point of view, go scold her once in a while. It's really not fair. I try my best and it's never good enough. All this frustration just makes me want to run away, sometimes.
Well, that was a bit of ranting and letting stuff out. I miss Vicky. I miss hanging out with my friends from Tech-back to the good old days, where nothing mattered and we just...chilled. It's so different and stressful now. I just hope it ends soon. Soon...
Good bye til whenever the fuck my sister lets me on.
-AK.
I still dream
About the day where we can be
With each other.
On that day
Watching a beautiful sunset.
Forever still,
The dreamer.
Ah yes, that long awaited update. I am so sorry(VICKY) that I didn't update. It's not entirely my fault. I slept the whole time I got home yesterday. I don't even remember what happened last night...weird. But anyway, on with my update ?
I don't really want to talk about school. It's a three-day weekend today and I sort of want to stay away from school. But the only thing you need to know it that I'm failing. Horribly. I really need this three-day weekend to pick myself back up. thankgod for Columbus. Not much else, really. But the personal update's something.
So there's this new guy...who I met in my gym class. He's part of the senior class who's with our junior class, period 7 gym. He has gym five days a week and I only have it four times. I'm sort of sad cause now I can't see him until Wednesday cause I have lab on Tuesdays. Ugh ): Some people know who he is, but I won't let his name out. I don't want people stalking him then going to me and being like: "OMG, HIM !? WTF." Or something along those lines. But he's a senior, yes a senior ! And I found out he's Japanese (: I was partially right, cause he definitely did not look Chinese. Too cute. Most Chinese guys aren't what I would categorize as "cute." Maaaybe "hot" or "total nerd" but nothing else, really. Let's start from the beginning, cause I have no life and I actually remember this stuff ! I'm so proud that I'm making you all read this (:< Well, you could skip it. I'm not forcing you to...but it'd be nice to see that you care so much ):O
We had our first conversation on the first day of school, I think. Gym 8, floor spots. Our teacher, D'Augusta, was out sick so we had a sub. She put us in alphabetical order but didn't separate us by class so I didn't know it was a senior and a junior class. He came in late, I think and looked confused. I was in the back, just sitting there and minding my own business. He asked me what letter I was it and I mumbled a "K." He then sat down right in front of me. Woo. I didn't think much of him at first, really. I thought he was just some ole Asian guy-who happened to be really cute and/or adorable-in my gym class.
A week or two into our volleyball unit, we were divided into teams. The captains were picked and everyone else was allowed to go to whatever team they wished to be on, that way, no one's feelings are hurt. Coach D'Augusta made me laugh. So, I'm standing there on the side with my good volleyball friend, Simeon. We're just standing there like: "ohmygosh, which team?" The senior now, comes up to me and asks: "Do you want to join my team?" I didn't know what to say and just nodded while waving Simeon over. His team looked full but he smiled and shrugged: "Oh, he can come along too." I smiled as all three of us headed towards the team. The games themselves were horrible because I had a few icky ball-hoggers. Remember that Septemer 25th post ? Yea, that was it. The stupid Asian ball-hogger. It wasn't my senior tho, so it was good (:
It was sometime after that, that I finally found out his name. I found out through my friend and I was actually a bit surprised at the name. I was wondering if it was his actual name. Turns out it is. The thing is, it made it a lot easier for me to look for him on Facebook. I am not, by any means, a stalker. I was simply curious. So I went and added him. We just have a short little conversation on Facebook and it was time for him to get off and sleep. Ah, that was when I started my all-nighters. Did I mention I had two of them in a row ? The only thing that really kept me going was probably the coffee...or the itty bitty naps I had. What happened on Thursday really made me happy. I had no idea why but I couldn't stop thinking about it and smiling afterwards.
Thursday was just like any other day. My day only starts to fly by after AP Calculus. In my opinion, I think my gym period goes by a tad bit too fast. Ever since I added him on Facebook, I been meaning to say or wave hi in person. He knows who I am so, it should be okay, no ? But something in me won't do it. I feel too chicken to do it. Why ? This isn't like me. I should just pull myself together and just wave and smile. I guess some part of me is probably scared of him rejecting a little "hi." I tend to have that happen to me a lot. I wave, I get ignored and I feel like an idiot. Who agrees ? SO let's move onto what happened Thursday ? It was just a regular day of gym, and we interacted a bit. More than usual, I guess. So I was a tad bit happy.
The first game that day was between 4 and 6, with team 1 reffing. For the record, I'm team 4 and he's team 1 (: So it was team 4's serve-we were first, yay. I like to serve first so I get to stay in the back for as long as possible. I was serving first and team 1 was on the far right of the court, where the bleachers were. He had a choice of going to spectate on team 6's side or my team's side, but he chose my side. He was practically standing right next to me, except I was on the court and he was off the court. This time I made sure to stand off the court to serve. I remember there was this one incident where I was serving behind the black line, and not the blue line and he and his teammate were practically staring me down/observing me and pointed it out to me. That time, he was also on my side of the court, yay.
I felt so nervous. My heart was pounding. I had no idea why. It just gets me extra nervous when I'm performing and people are just...staring. Luckily, I didn't mess up too badly. Afterwards, my team had to go on the other court for testing with our serves. I was on the other side of the gym and this time, he went on my side too. A couple of glances here and there had me blushing like a little school girl. Well, I felt myself blush and burn up. I think I might be over thinking it a little bit on my end, but who cares. Near the end of class, I went to grab a volleyball and try an over head serve. Everyone was still running around, playing with the volleyballs, so I thought, why not. Amazingly, I got it over the net. The whistle was blown and everyone started to scatter as I was looking to whose head it would land on when I saw him. It turns out, that he stayed and waited to play a one-on-one with me(I think....a girl can hope, can't she ?). He had a nice(and what I thought was genuine-but I don't know)smile on his face, and made me smile too. Too bad that moment couldn't last forever. It was the highlight of my day.
My cousin and my sister says I'm fantasizing too much on this one guy. "There's no hope. You'll never get closer to him or anything, so just give up." I told them, as long as he's even a whee bit interested in me-which is what I'm thinking-I don't care. It might not last. It might not work. But for the time being, I'm happy. At least I'm somewhat set and not the confused little girl I was a couple weeks ago. I don't know...I wish they'd just let me be and let me have my fun. Honestly. I'm single. I've had my ups and downs, so I get to have some fun in my life, right ? Right. After all, we're only young once.
That's all there is to say about him, for now. There's so much more I want to say. Because of these bitches called my sister and my mother, I must get off. It's mostly my sister, actually. She thinks the computer's all hers and she can lay down the rules of when she can have it, and when I can't. It's not fucking fair. I'm the older sibling, I should be the one in charge. All she does it watch dramas all day anyways, so why the fuck should I give it to her ? This is one of the main reasons why I want a laptop. That way, I can have it all to myself. Sometimes I'm so frustrated at my parents for always taking her side, that I lock myself in my room and cry from frustration. Childish, right ? I don't care. It's better than bottling it up, which is what I used to do until I couldn't take it anymore. It actually feels better to let it all out. I just wish my parents would understand, see if from my point of view, go scold her once in a while. It's really not fair. I try my best and it's never good enough. All this frustration just makes me want to run away, sometimes.
Well, that was a bit of ranting and letting stuff out. I miss Vicky. I miss hanging out with my friends from Tech-back to the good old days, where nothing mattered and we just...chilled. It's so different and stressful now. I just hope it ends soon. Soon...
Good bye til whenever the fuck my sister lets me on.
-AK.
I still dream
About the day where we can be
With each other.
On that day
Watching a beautiful sunset.
Forever still,
The dreamer.
Friday, October 9, 2009
Day 31 - an update ?
AGH. I have such bad timing. I was actually going to give a full-ish update today. But I have to shower. My dad told me to shower before 11. Whoops. Maybe tomorrow if I'm lucky ): WAIT. Maybe. I only have Chinese school tomorrow. No SAT prep ;D !
YAY. Okay, tomorrow then.
-AK.
YAY. Okay, tomorrow then.
-AK.
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Day 28
Well, the update I sort of promised. Not much. It's late, so I'll breeze through it.
School's too much for me to go into much detail. I'm a failure-that's all you really need to know. I'm trying my best, but so far it isn't enough. I have to try harder. It's kind of sad, actually. I don't know. When I think about things I have to do for school, for my future, I just want to escape it all. Go off into my own little world far, far, away where none of this shit matters. Now, moving on. Wow, that was a quick update on school. I did say I was breezing through it.
As for my personal update, vicky you'll have to read the e-mail later. I'll get to that. But yes. Anyways, I don't know how I'm feeling. Mentally, I know I'm horrible. Physically is worse. Socially, not so much. It's a long story. I htink I'll just type it up in an e-mail, or write it later so I won't forget the feeling I get.
I promised vicky I wouldn't sleep too late. It's 2AM. Good night.
-AK.
School's too much for me to go into much detail. I'm a failure-that's all you really need to know. I'm trying my best, but so far it isn't enough. I have to try harder. It's kind of sad, actually. I don't know. When I think about things I have to do for school, for my future, I just want to escape it all. Go off into my own little world far, far, away where none of this shit matters. Now, moving on. Wow, that was a quick update on school. I did say I was breezing through it.
As for my personal update, vicky you'll have to read the e-mail later. I'll get to that. But yes. Anyways, I don't know how I'm feeling. Mentally, I know I'm horrible. Physically is worse. Socially, not so much. It's a long story. I htink I'll just type it up in an e-mail, or write it later so I won't forget the feeling I get.
I promised vicky I wouldn't sleep too late. It's 2AM. Good night.
-AK.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Day 26
So, an update. After, how many days ? Idk. There aint much going on lately. But let's update anyway.
School...has been hell this past week. I had a whole day of testing last Friday. 3 quizzes: English, AP Bio and US History. And a double-period test for AP Calc. OH JOY. More like, OH FAIL. I tried so hard to study for AP Bio and Calc cause I can NOT afford to fail a quiz in Bio and I can't afford to fail Calcuclus. Period. English I just simply Sparknoted it :x Bad habit, but it was helpful. I can't understand MacBeth anyways so it's a plus =P I was so...stressed, like you can't believe. It was horrible, my Calc test. I was sitting in front of the teacher and he saw me struggling on a problem. He asked me in a whisper, "Did you study for this test?" I was so...I don'tknow how to explain how I felt. It was in the middle of embarrasment and sadness and anger. Angry that I didn't study enough. Sad that I probably won't pass at this rate. Embarrased cause my techer had to ask whether or not I studied. Horrible, just horrible. Volleyball was eh, after that. Physics was..more understandable. BUT GUESS WHAT !? A TEST ON FRIDAY, LIKE YAY. Sike. Then the US History quiz. It wasn't EXTREMELY HARD but since it didn't have too many questions, one or two mistakes will bring me down to an 80 or below. FML. Seriously.
After that I hung out with Vicky. We went to the city. Won't say what we did, casue her boyfriend's probably stalking my blog and trying to see what dirty little secrets me and vicky are hiding (:< BE JEALOUS, WALTON. BWAHAHAHA. Moving on.
Personal update...not much really. I don't feel any different, minus the stress and extra pissy-off mood lately. Every day I have more reasons for me getting a laptop. I am honestly so sick and tired of sharing a computer with my sister. She doesn't even do anything, really. She watches a freaking drama while I'm stuck doing homework until 12 at night or, worse. My parents tjust scold me for staying on the computer for so damn long. Not my freaking fault. They don't listen, so screw that. I need to finish my homework, I need to study. I can't afford to fail another fucking quiz. Ooh, looky. A curse word. Oh no, I'm tainted.
I know this isn't much of an update but lately I haven't found anything to really write about...maybe when I think of some more things, I'll update. Maybe...no promises on that. =P I don't even get a lot of time on the computer anymore so even if I DO have something to update about, I'll probably forget it until I update about it. So for the time-being, I'm going to write down my stuff in the journal I saved for vicky, and vicky only (: I ain giving her the book until I finish it xP ! Cause she has yet to gimme hers >;o ! But yea, If I remember of find something update-worthy, and maybe worthy or okay enough to post up, then I'll do it :D
Until then ~
-AK.
School...has been hell this past week. I had a whole day of testing last Friday. 3 quizzes: English, AP Bio and US History. And a double-period test for AP Calc. OH JOY. More like, OH FAIL. I tried so hard to study for AP Bio and Calc cause I can NOT afford to fail a quiz in Bio and I can't afford to fail Calcuclus. Period. English I just simply Sparknoted it :x Bad habit, but it was helpful. I can't understand MacBeth anyways so it's a plus =P I was so...stressed, like you can't believe. It was horrible, my Calc test. I was sitting in front of the teacher and he saw me struggling on a problem. He asked me in a whisper, "Did you study for this test?" I was so...I don'tknow how to explain how I felt. It was in the middle of embarrasment and sadness and anger. Angry that I didn't study enough. Sad that I probably won't pass at this rate. Embarrased cause my techer had to ask whether or not I studied. Horrible, just horrible. Volleyball was eh, after that. Physics was..more understandable. BUT GUESS WHAT !? A TEST ON FRIDAY, LIKE YAY. Sike. Then the US History quiz. It wasn't EXTREMELY HARD but since it didn't have too many questions, one or two mistakes will bring me down to an 80 or below. FML. Seriously.
After that I hung out with Vicky. We went to the city. Won't say what we did, casue her boyfriend's probably stalking my blog and trying to see what dirty little secrets me and vicky are hiding (:< BE JEALOUS, WALTON. BWAHAHAHA. Moving on.
Personal update...not much really. I don't feel any different, minus the stress and extra pissy-off mood lately. Every day I have more reasons for me getting a laptop. I am honestly so sick and tired of sharing a computer with my sister. She doesn't even do anything, really. She watches a freaking drama while I'm stuck doing homework until 12 at night or, worse. My parents tjust scold me for staying on the computer for so damn long. Not my freaking fault. They don't listen, so screw that. I need to finish my homework, I need to study. I can't afford to fail another fucking quiz. Ooh, looky. A curse word. Oh no, I'm tainted.
I know this isn't much of an update but lately I haven't found anything to really write about...maybe when I think of some more things, I'll update. Maybe...no promises on that. =P I don't even get a lot of time on the computer anymore so even if I DO have something to update about, I'll probably forget it until I update about it. So for the time-being, I'm going to write down my stuff in the journal I saved for vicky, and vicky only (: I ain giving her the book until I finish it xP ! Cause she has yet to gimme hers >;o ! But yea, If I remember of find something update-worthy, and maybe worthy or okay enough to post up, then I'll do it :D
Until then ~
-AK.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Day 23
Barely any time. Maybe full update tomorrow. Maaybe. Got quizzes and a test to study for. I'm so dead. It's freaking 10PM and I'm only on AP Bio. I should be worrying about my Calculus test more but I can't afford to fail anything tomorrow.
Wish me luck ?
-AK.
And the days go by so fast
When I'm not focused on you.
happyoneyearandninemonthsvicky (; ! ♥
Wish me luck ?
-AK.
And the days go by so fast
When I'm not focused on you.
happyoneyearandninemonthsvicky (; ! ♥
Day 22
It is currently 12AM, and I aint tired. Yay coffee and caffeine. It's sort of good for me cause now I can stay up and finish my Calculus homework and maybe get some studying done. It's been a long and grueling day. Kind of boring and depressing and stressful, but I'll get to that in the next paragraph or so.
Okay, so English was horrible. We did "group-work" and I was in a group full of...people I don't like. Well, the types of people I don't like. I'm not exactly judgmental...well maybe a tad bit. But they sort of proved my judgments right. I don't even think they wrote my name on the group work sheet thingy. Oh well, not my fault I can't relate to Ross or make a police statement for him in MacBeth. But yea...that wraps up English. AP Bio was...the usual I guess. I think I sort of get the material but who knows how good or bad I'll do on my next quiz this Friday. AP Calc was actually okay. I understand most of the stuff we went over today. I just hope I'm just as good with the previous material so that I'll be so ready for that test this Friday that's really stressing me out. Although Hung seems to have no problem. Ugh, I swear that kid is good at everything. Moving on, there was a fire drill 6th period. That pissed me off. It was my gym period. I was looking forward to it -_- I wanted to play volleyball but NOO there just had to be a fire drill and we had to go out in the cold. It was...ugh. We saw our Physics teacher getting a cup of coffee o.o" Weird. We had all our stuff and we could've gone home, but nooo we saw him ): Physics was bleh. I was helping Valeria with her excel thingy the whole time. Uhh...lunch was ick ? US was boring.
I didn't do much after school today. Went to get my ID for NYDH volunteering and then I started today. I ended at 5 and then went home. Attempted homework/read manga the whole time. Nothing interesting.
OH, I SAW ANTHONY TODAY (: On my way to City Hall, I saw him at the train station. Oh gawsh it's been so long since I've seen him. I used to se him every day and rarely seeing him makes me sad ): That goes for everyone else I used to have class with. This year makes for a very sad Angela )'; But moving on, I TOLD YOU SO VICKY. Didn't say hi, didn't talk, didn't greet. Nothing. Vicky now owes me money cause she lost a bet (:<3 Gahh my feet are so cold as I'm typing this. I'd go get socks but my room's so damn far away. Dammit I really want that laptop in my room ): At least the coffee is doing it's thing. I aint feeling tired at all so I have hope for finishing ALL my homework tonight (; ! I am not a failure x.x" I should do my homework more often, seriously. This early in the school year and I'm already barely passing ? Not a good thing.
Damn this post is so short...maybe I'll have more to write tomorrow. Or maybe it's cause of this thing I'm reading...it's so interesting. Kind of sad ): DAMMIT MY PRINTER'S SO LOUD ;X It's freaking 1AM and everyone's asleep. I feel bad :x Only two more pages D: ! SHUDDAP PRINTER ! -kicks it- Okay. o.o" I guess that's all for today ?
Good nights ~
-AK.
Okay, so English was horrible. We did "group-work" and I was in a group full of...people I don't like. Well, the types of people I don't like. I'm not exactly judgmental...well maybe a tad bit. But they sort of proved my judgments right. I don't even think they wrote my name on the group work sheet thingy. Oh well, not my fault I can't relate to Ross or make a police statement for him in MacBeth. But yea...that wraps up English. AP Bio was...the usual I guess. I think I sort of get the material but who knows how good or bad I'll do on my next quiz this Friday. AP Calc was actually okay. I understand most of the stuff we went over today. I just hope I'm just as good with the previous material so that I'll be so ready for that test this Friday that's really stressing me out. Although Hung seems to have no problem. Ugh, I swear that kid is good at everything. Moving on, there was a fire drill 6th period. That pissed me off. It was my gym period. I was looking forward to it -_- I wanted to play volleyball but NOO there just had to be a fire drill and we had to go out in the cold. It was...ugh. We saw our Physics teacher getting a cup of coffee o.o" Weird. We had all our stuff and we could've gone home, but nooo we saw him ): Physics was bleh. I was helping Valeria with her excel thingy the whole time. Uhh...lunch was ick ? US was boring.
I didn't do much after school today. Went to get my ID for NYDH volunteering and then I started today. I ended at 5 and then went home. Attempted homework/read manga the whole time. Nothing interesting.
OH, I SAW ANTHONY TODAY (: On my way to City Hall, I saw him at the train station. Oh gawsh it's been so long since I've seen him. I used to se him every day and rarely seeing him makes me sad ): That goes for everyone else I used to have class with. This year makes for a very sad Angela )'; But moving on, I TOLD YOU SO VICKY. Didn't say hi, didn't talk, didn't greet. Nothing. Vicky now owes me money cause she lost a bet (:<3 Gahh my feet are so cold as I'm typing this. I'd go get socks but my room's so damn far away. Dammit I really want that laptop in my room ): At least the coffee is doing it's thing. I aint feeling tired at all so I have hope for finishing ALL my homework tonight (; ! I am not a failure x.x" I should do my homework more often, seriously. This early in the school year and I'm already barely passing ? Not a good thing.
Damn this post is so short...maybe I'll have more to write tomorrow. Or maybe it's cause of this thing I'm reading...it's so interesting. Kind of sad ): DAMMIT MY PRINTER'S SO LOUD ;X It's freaking 1AM and everyone's asleep. I feel bad :x Only two more pages D: ! SHUDDAP PRINTER ! -kicks it- Okay. o.o" I guess that's all for today ?
Good nights ~
-AK.
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