Wow, it's been 21 days since school started and I feel so dead. Hasn't even been a month yet and...wow. I wonder how the freak I'm going to survive this year. My AP teachers tell me that this is just the beginning. I shudder to think what they mean by that.
Today has been..hellish for me. English, everyone was so dead. Oh shit, I have that vocab I have to do. Fuck. Then AP Bio was a total fail. Literally. I got my test back and I was kind of scared. I had hoped that I did well. Turns out my hoping was worthless. I failed miserably. Even with the extra credit that he gave us and mismarked, etc, I was still 2 points away from passing. How sad. In Calculus, I was reminded only about a thousand times of that test on Friday and how every single freaking thing we're doing is on the damn test. Ugh, someone kill me now. Physics lab was fairly easy and fast. I had to pee really badly, went and it was such a sweet relief, like you can't believe LOL. Physics was...eh. I felt stupid and Valeria felt smart LOL. Oh the joys of Physics. I should really do some studying in there. Lunch was meh. US History was boring. He's back ahaha and he expected all the homeworks from us. The thing is, I thought I was ahead by one homework, but the turns out I was behind one homework. FML.
That was that. I met vicky at Dekalb today to go to Coney Island. Don't ask why, we felt like it. More like I did cause she couldn't think of where to go-what a smarty. She was there since 3PM but I didn't know that. She was sitting upstairs while I was down on the platform waiting for her. How stupid were we ? Ahaha. So we go and we talk and talk and stuff on the train ride there and also at the McDonald's we were eating at. It was a nice afternoon but our afternoon had barely begun. I wanted ice cream. vicky said that the McDonald's ice cream sucked so we decided to go to Dunkin' Donuts/Baskin Robins. It was loads better. I got a double scoop while she got a single scoop cause I'm a fatass like that. Not my fault I wanted to try 2 flavors. I got the gold medal ribbon and vanilla while vicky got rocky road.
We then both head for the beach cause it was fairly sunny and it beats sitting at Dunkin Donuts, full of weirdos. We walk down the beach and finish our ice cream. Well, vicky does. And SO SMART OF HER, it was windy and guess what ? She decides to POUR the melted ice ceam into the trash can. Without warning, the ice cream travels with the wind and lands on my shoe snd jeans. Remember what flavor she had ? ROCKY ROADS ICE CREAM. CHOCOLATE. I HAD FREAKING DOODOO ON MY JEANS. And you know what she was doing the whole time ? LAUGHING. She's so nice, aint she ? Oh, and pictures-my dad's kind of watching me right now so I guess I'll post some tomorrow, I don't know. I just woke up from a nap and I may be a bit cranky. Just a tad bit...I WANT SLEEP.
So we go home and she's pretty much just laughing the whole time. Her tummy hurt so that was some form of payback. Bwahaha...I am not evil. She's the bad guy here ): ! But yea, it wa really fun today. We didn't do anything crazy, just hung out. And laughed. And fooled. It was nice. Til I got home. My mom was PMSing, I swear. She bitches at me almost the second I get home. Like, wth did I do ? Then, she's so hypocritical. She tells me and my sister to no throw anger tantrums and start slamming everything and shit, she does that. Like w.t.f. And my sister's just a greedy, selfish bitch. She thinks that she freaking owns KOrean dramas or some shit-like how she won't let me see it whever I want. Like who the hell died and made you queen ? She gets to watch it herself but I HAVE to watch it with her ? I don't think so. They did a fairly good job of pissing me off but not as much as myself. I started my Calc homework, and let me tell you, I feel like a totall dumbass. I can't do a problem without going back into my notebook for assistance or for the formula. Toady's Tuesday, I have a test this Friday. Damnit.
Now, for my personal update. Why do I put this last ? I have no idea. The other stuff's easier to write, I suppose. Ah yes...I don't know where to start, someone help me. I wonder if anyone else other than vicky(AND WALTON, thanks to her ): ! ) read my post. If not, then good. If so...then I don't know. Only if they figured it out then I'd be a bit screwed. Just a tad bit, you know ? But yes. OH WAIT, before I continue, Kevin Hung got a haircut. N olie. It's...something new. :D It's not HORRIBLE, but I will have to get used to it. C'mon, new hair :P And ohmygawsh. I am so...sad for him. Reasons remain unknown but...yea. I'm making no sense but it's okay (:
Haven't heard from any of the numbers yet except one of them. Today was actually on of the first times we had a decent face-to-face conversation. We greeted each other IN PERSON, LIKE OHMYGAWD. Not. But yea. And we talked a whee bit. Agh, I miss everyone else tho. Not just cause I wanna...you know...they;'re my friends, still. I want to see them sometime soon but with my schedule, it's near impossible. Although I was called out today. I was planning to take the train with one but then I wasn't going to ditch vicky. Nuh-uh. Not even for a guy. Never (: I would've asked him to come along BUT then it'd be a tad bit weird. I'm scared of what vicky would do :P ILOVEYOUDEAR(:
I'd say more, but then I might give myself away. So mysterious I shall stay. Or try. Maybe I've said too much already. I don't know. I just know that while I'm in City Hall tomorrow, I should buy a latte. YES, VICKY, a latte. Caramel. Yum~ I need to stay awake tomorrow night. Loads of homework and studying to do. Freakin' math test is killing me slowly on the inside. If I can't get through thr double period, I'm going to run to the locker room and cry on Valeria's shoulder. She'll probably let me tho o.o" Maybe D'Augusta will pity me and my Calculus and let me sit out. BUT I CAN'T DO THAT. It's out volleyball unit. I SHALL PLAY !
Oh lookie, daddy's finished showering. MY TURN. FINALLY.
Good night (: ?
-AK.
Confess to me.
And there will be no more lies,
No more confusion.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Day 20
OKAY. It's about 8:40PM now, so I guess it's time to update (: ! Not much really...
Woke up at 10, did laundry, breakfast. Lazy and quick morning. Before I knew it, it was 2. I was watching Boys Before Flowers, the Korean drama, with my sister and OHMYGAWSH. I think I might be obsessed. Not my fault Korean actors are so damn handsomely god-like. How I wish I could have one of them. Then I'd be hunted down by fangirls but I wouldn't care. I had something they didn't (; NO, VICKY, I AM NOT CHEATING ON YOU. But he's so...yum. ♥ Here's the one I love the most (: I couldn't really find a good pic of him );
So...my afternoon flew by pretty quickly. I was rushing to do my chores before my mom got home and I actually succeeded today :D ! I didn't mop and she didn't suspect a thing. Yet :x And we go to now...Me, blogging. I never knew how boring and fast my day is without school. Weird. I still have that homework pile waiting for me :[ Ugh, I haven't looked at my homework since Friday when I got it. I swear I am a failure at life.
Even Vicky and Tony are doing their homework. Vicky, who almost never does it and Tony, who never does anything cause he's so lazy ): I swear, these two people made my afternoon. Tony made me laugh so much. That idiot (; Vicky comes out of nowhere and I don't know, I just smile. The two of the few awesome loves of my life.
So let's see...a personal update ? None actually. Today was just a drama-free day. Other than the drama I was watching :D It was quite...relaxing. But that didn't last too long. Now it's 9PM and I have tons of homework to do. I told Tony that after I finish this blog, I'm going to turn my computer off and sit at my desk and do my damn homework. Even if it kills me. Or even if my parents want to kill me before my homework does D:
Who am I currently infatuated with ? I have absolutely no idea. Other than Vicky, I have no idea :P #1 is a bit random. One moment we're talking awesomely and the next, I feel...abandoned. But he comes back. I don't know... #2 is totally ignoring me. Sort of. Avoiding me ? Or maybe it's me. But I think he knows. Ah well. Just focus on school for now and maybe it'll go away. #3, I haven't seen in ages. I don't have any classes with him and it sort of makes me sad cause I rarely see him. Only when I get lucky, I see him after school. But that's it. Is there a #4 ? I aint too sure. My best friend, and I sort of want it to stay that way. Or do I ? I don't know. But at this moment I sort of don't care. I just have my Vicky and Korean actor, whose name I don't know how to spell or say. BUT I SHALL LEARN IT ! Yes, I will.
Now, time for homework, focusing on school and not guys, and stuff. In other words, time to be a nerd. Yes, Angela Kong is a damn nerd and not exactly proud of it. I fail at being a nerd sometimes. And I also fail at the opposite of nerd-and I have no idea what that is. I care about my grades but sometimes I just have this...lazy feeling. I think it's the rain. Whenever it rains, I have major headaches and feel extremely lazy compared to usual. It's not good, especially if it rains the night before school. Ugh, damn weather. It reminds me of Kyo, someone who hates the rain. I mean, I like looking at the rain from indoors-it's simply beautiful and breathtaking. But put me in it and I get cranky. No me gusta. Wo bu xi huan. End of story.
Ah, speaking of stories, Thomas Lee proposed an interesting idea for one. It's not a bad idea, kind of cheesy but what romance story isn't ? But then I don't know about writing with him. That part's got me a bit eh. But I sorta of like his idea. I'm already thinking about how the two main characters are going to develop in between and stuff. But that's for another day. I need to seriously get off and do my homework. Even if I get homework to copy off of someone tomorrow, there's no freaking way I can copy everything and know everything by the time I get to that class. That would be a bit impossible.
So I guess it's good night ? Yea, probably. iloveyou118 ♥ and maybe 228, 489, 523, 623, 926. Damn, so many dates. Luckily I know all of them and no one else does (:
Good night. Wish me all the best of luck.
-AK.
It's true we don't know what we've got until its gone,
But we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
If I can only be with you in my dreams,
Then let me sleep forever.
Woke up at 10, did laundry, breakfast. Lazy and quick morning. Before I knew it, it was 2. I was watching Boys Before Flowers, the Korean drama, with my sister and OHMYGAWSH. I think I might be obsessed. Not my fault Korean actors are so damn handsomely god-like. How I wish I could have one of them. Then I'd be hunted down by fangirls but I wouldn't care. I had something they didn't (; NO, VICKY, I AM NOT CHEATING ON YOU. But he's so...yum. ♥ Here's the one I love the most (: I couldn't really find a good pic of him );
So...my afternoon flew by pretty quickly. I was rushing to do my chores before my mom got home and I actually succeeded today :D ! I didn't mop and she didn't suspect a thing. Yet :x And we go to now...Me, blogging. I never knew how boring and fast my day is without school. Weird. I still have that homework pile waiting for me :[ Ugh, I haven't looked at my homework since Friday when I got it. I swear I am a failure at life.
Even Vicky and Tony are doing their homework. Vicky, who almost never does it and Tony, who never does anything cause he's so lazy ): I swear, these two people made my afternoon. Tony made me laugh so much. That idiot (; Vicky comes out of nowhere and I don't know, I just smile. The two of the few awesome loves of my life.
So let's see...a personal update ? None actually. Today was just a drama-free day. Other than the drama I was watching :D It was quite...relaxing. But that didn't last too long. Now it's 9PM and I have tons of homework to do. I told Tony that after I finish this blog, I'm going to turn my computer off and sit at my desk and do my damn homework. Even if it kills me. Or even if my parents want to kill me before my homework does D:
Who am I currently infatuated with ? I have absolutely no idea. Other than Vicky, I have no idea :P #1 is a bit random. One moment we're talking awesomely and the next, I feel...abandoned. But he comes back. I don't know... #2 is totally ignoring me. Sort of. Avoiding me ? Or maybe it's me. But I think he knows. Ah well. Just focus on school for now and maybe it'll go away. #3, I haven't seen in ages. I don't have any classes with him and it sort of makes me sad cause I rarely see him. Only when I get lucky, I see him after school. But that's it. Is there a #4 ? I aint too sure. My best friend, and I sort of want it to stay that way. Or do I ? I don't know. But at this moment I sort of don't care. I just have my Vicky and Korean actor, whose name I don't know how to spell or say. BUT I SHALL LEARN IT ! Yes, I will.
Now, time for homework, focusing on school and not guys, and stuff. In other words, time to be a nerd. Yes, Angela Kong is a damn nerd and not exactly proud of it. I fail at being a nerd sometimes. And I also fail at the opposite of nerd-and I have no idea what that is. I care about my grades but sometimes I just have this...lazy feeling. I think it's the rain. Whenever it rains, I have major headaches and feel extremely lazy compared to usual. It's not good, especially if it rains the night before school. Ugh, damn weather. It reminds me of Kyo, someone who hates the rain. I mean, I like looking at the rain from indoors-it's simply beautiful and breathtaking. But put me in it and I get cranky. No me gusta. Wo bu xi huan. End of story.
Ah, speaking of stories, Thomas Lee proposed an interesting idea for one. It's not a bad idea, kind of cheesy but what romance story isn't ? But then I don't know about writing with him. That part's got me a bit eh. But I sorta of like his idea. I'm already thinking about how the two main characters are going to develop in between and stuff. But that's for another day. I need to seriously get off and do my homework. Even if I get homework to copy off of someone tomorrow, there's no freaking way I can copy everything and know everything by the time I get to that class. That would be a bit impossible.
So I guess it's good night ? Yea, probably. iloveyou118 ♥ and maybe 228, 489, 523, 623, 926. Damn, so many dates. Luckily I know all of them and no one else does (:
Good night. Wish me all the best of luck.
-AK.
It's true we don't know what we've got until its gone,
But we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.
If I can only be with you in my dreams,
Then let me sleep forever.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Day 19
Okay, so I am back for now. I'm watching the Red Bull Air Race with my parents. It's quite exciting. Seriously. SO, while I'm watching, let's update.
Yesterday I said i had loads to tell. Well I did, sorta. There's this freshman in Murrow who's in my Chinese class. I swear I didn't know he was a freshman. Sophomore, maybe, but not freshman. He's kinda cute and not so bad with the looks. He made me laugh a lot yesterday morning, even tho we were kind of arguing/flirting. Well, if you call that flirting :D Not my fault. I am not desperate ! I was simply looking for some form of entertainment and he came along to my class.
I had lunch with my mom and my bro at McDonald's cause he was complaining about wanting to eat there. I actually had a nice talk with my mom...about college. Weird. But it was...nice nonetheless. We had fried ice cream ! I swear I think I'm addicted to that treat. THANKS A LOT VICKY. NOW I'M GONNA BE FAT. rawr. After that was SAT prep, yadda yadda.
That wraps up yesterday I think. Today was kind of...boring. I woke up, brought sis to her prep place and I went to volunteer. Today was kind of worse than yesterday due to the kid I was helping today. Stupid Rex was misbehaving after the BAD INFLUENCE of this freshman. No, it's not the same freshman, tis a different one. The other one was Murrow and this one's Tech. Ew. NO OFFENSE. He's OD nerdy. Like supa nerd. Ewie. All in all it was a regular ole boring day. Went home with dad and sister, had lunch, took a small nap, went to Home Depot with my dad and then we went to Coney Island beach and waited for my mom to end work. Home, computer, early dinner and now.
How time flies.
So, now for a more...personal update ? I think this weekend-since Friday- has been a bit better. I feel less stressed and a bit more happy, which is good. I still have that shopping day, spa day, yoga day, and loads more days and promises for the one and only Vicky. I love her to bits and I don't care what guy I'm obsessed with at the moment, she's always above them. She has her problems as well and I try my best to help her. YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHY I SAY THIS NOW, DEARIE. Don't be starting shit with her, honestly. She gets her revenge. Ahaha. Which is why I try to not wake her up in the morning. (I am so good <3)
I'm somewhat pissed off now. Why the freak is that asshole messing with her ? It ticks me off to no ends. He has no fucking claim on her. He has no right to treat her like that. He has no fucking right at all. He should just go away, disappear and do us all a fucking favor and leave us alone. Yes, I said us. It's something so stupid to get stressed and mad over, yet it happens. I understand her boyfriend's mad about it too-who the fuck isn't?-but he has to learn Vicky's way the hard way. Stuff like this, she wants to handle herself. As her best friend and boyfriend(to Walton) we can only help her get some steam off, calm down and be her awesome self. We can only be here for her, if we can't fight the battle for her. Vicky, I love you to bits and I guess this paragraph sort of makes up for my lack of cheesiness that you and Walton have been graced with. ): So, hun, I hope you feel better and forget about that fag.
SO LET'S SEE...nothing else for now, really. Too...lazy to think ? I don't think lazy's the word, but idk the word I'm looking for at the moment. Be back tomorrow ? NO SCHOOL. YES, THANK GOD FOR A THREE-DAY WEEKEND. Took long enough...
Goodnighty nights.
-AK.
And today, I was so close by
That I could just knock on your door
And give you that awaited hug and comfort
That you need and deserve.
If only, if only...
That fresh breeze of the salty sea air
Brought back memories.
Even if it was a rainy day, unlike that day
I still remember.
If only, if only...
Yesterday I said i had loads to tell. Well I did, sorta. There's this freshman in Murrow who's in my Chinese class. I swear I didn't know he was a freshman. Sophomore, maybe, but not freshman. He's kinda cute and not so bad with the looks. He made me laugh a lot yesterday morning, even tho we were kind of arguing/flirting. Well, if you call that flirting :D Not my fault. I am not desperate ! I was simply looking for some form of entertainment and he came along to my class.
I had lunch with my mom and my bro at McDonald's cause he was complaining about wanting to eat there. I actually had a nice talk with my mom...about college. Weird. But it was...nice nonetheless. We had fried ice cream ! I swear I think I'm addicted to that treat. THANKS A LOT VICKY. NOW I'M GONNA BE FAT. rawr. After that was SAT prep, yadda yadda.
That wraps up yesterday I think. Today was kind of...boring. I woke up, brought sis to her prep place and I went to volunteer. Today was kind of worse than yesterday due to the kid I was helping today. Stupid Rex was misbehaving after the BAD INFLUENCE of this freshman. No, it's not the same freshman, tis a different one. The other one was Murrow and this one's Tech. Ew. NO OFFENSE. He's OD nerdy. Like supa nerd. Ewie. All in all it was a regular ole boring day. Went home with dad and sister, had lunch, took a small nap, went to Home Depot with my dad and then we went to Coney Island beach and waited for my mom to end work. Home, computer, early dinner and now.
How time flies.
So, now for a more...personal update ? I think this weekend-since Friday- has been a bit better. I feel less stressed and a bit more happy, which is good. I still have that shopping day, spa day, yoga day, and loads more days and promises for the one and only Vicky. I love her to bits and I don't care what guy I'm obsessed with at the moment, she's always above them. She has her problems as well and I try my best to help her. YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHY I SAY THIS NOW, DEARIE. Don't be starting shit with her, honestly. She gets her revenge. Ahaha. Which is why I try to not wake her up in the morning. (I am so good <3)
I'm somewhat pissed off now. Why the freak is that asshole messing with her ? It ticks me off to no ends. He has no fucking claim on her. He has no right to treat her like that. He has no fucking right at all. He should just go away, disappear and do us all a fucking favor and leave us alone. Yes, I said us. It's something so stupid to get stressed and mad over, yet it happens. I understand her boyfriend's mad about it too-who the fuck isn't?-but he has to learn Vicky's way the hard way. Stuff like this, she wants to handle herself. As her best friend and boyfriend(to Walton) we can only help her get some steam off, calm down and be her awesome self. We can only be here for her, if we can't fight the battle for her. Vicky, I love you to bits and I guess this paragraph sort of makes up for my lack of cheesiness that you and Walton have been graced with. ): So, hun, I hope you feel better and forget about that fag.
SO LET'S SEE...nothing else for now, really. Too...lazy to think ? I don't think lazy's the word, but idk the word I'm looking for at the moment. Be back tomorrow ? NO SCHOOL. YES, THANK GOD FOR A THREE-DAY WEEKEND. Took long enough...
Goodnighty nights.
-AK.
And today, I was so close by
That I could just knock on your door
And give you that awaited hug and comfort
That you need and deserve.
If only, if only...
That fresh breeze of the salty sea air
Brought back memories.
Even if it was a rainy day, unlike that day
I still remember.
If only, if only...
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Day 18
OMGOSH. LOADS TO TELL, but I'll just add that to tomorrow's post ? It's late and I'm tired. I was going to update a couple hours ago...but it sort of slipped my mind ? I don't know where the time went.
But there's this...freshman kid at my Chinese school and he SO DOES NOT LOOK LIKE A DAMN FRESHMAN. And he's kinda cute ~ NO MORE. Updating aint today. So, tomorrow it shall be (:
Good night (;
-AK.
But there's this...freshman kid at my Chinese school and he SO DOES NOT LOOK LIKE A DAMN FRESHMAN. And he's kinda cute ~ NO MORE. Updating aint today. So, tomorrow it shall be (:
Good night (;
-AK.
Friday, September 25, 2009
Day 17
Yays, I'm updating before 12 AM FOR ONCE :o ! Amazing, aint it ? Good. Let's move on.
So, today wasn't exactly a hellish day. It was a SLOW, but okay Friday. I failed my English quiz, totally. I took a nap in AP Bio and it was really relaxing. I swore the teacher saw me, but I don't think he cared. We were all doing some reading thingy anyways. This nerd that sits behind me fell asleep too LOL. So, because of my nice little nap, I was really...not sleepy in Calculus. IT'S AMAZING :O ! The guy next to me-idk his name-I pointed this out and I was like: you fell asleep the other day, I fell asleep yesterday...yea. He was like: we shall NOT fall asleep today ! -determined look- Er...yea. Don't ask. Weirdo seniors (: After that, I had gym. Volleyball is fun <3 Except ball hogs and know-it-alls totally ruin it. This Asian kid thought the knew wtf he was doing, but he sorta didn't What a freaking ball hog. Ugh. But I did save the ball at the last minute without paying attention :D It was coming at me and I was like: WHOA -bump- Yay :D I had fun ~ Valerie showed up unprepared today. I was mad ):< ! Physics was the usual do-nothing period. I have to send him my e-mail sometime this weekend. I hope he'll accept it late ;x Just hope. Lunch was...eh. The usual I guess. Not too much bitching at each other so that's good o.o ? I cut 9th today :x The teacher wasn't here, AGAIN. Today was the third day. Yesterday I told myself: it's a Friday and if he's out, then I'm out. And I was :x So I texted the babyvicky and told her I was out already. She was shocked. Sorta >;o And time flew from there.
We headed for City Hall to get my NON-NERDY dictionary. It's really pretty and kind of worth it, according to the reviews. I have yet to use it properly but so far, it seems okay (: We then walked to Chinatown and I had my first taste of fried ice cream. It was good. End of story. AND NO, I DID NOT GOOGLE ON HOW TO MAKE FRIED ICE CREAM. GAWSH vicky thinks I'm OH SO predictable. BUT I AINT ;O ! So, ha vicky (:<3 Then we were off to somewhere...we saw walton o.o" It was awkward only cause he's oh so jealous of me :D ♥ I don't blame him tho :P We're sooo at war right now. ALL THANKS TO VICKY ;O ! ♥ But yeaa. He went up to his place and ate while vicky and I went to vivi's I got her fat (: I MEAN, full :o ! Popcorn chicken was yum. But I was feeling pretty full myself ;x I shouldn't have eaten it but I sort of had a craving :O I mean, coming to Chinatown without eating anything else ? No way. Although I should really watch my spending and start saving up ): And go shopping with vicky !
el tiempo con mi amor es es el tiempo favorita ♥
someone check my grammar for me :O ?
So, today wasn't exactly a hellish day. It was a SLOW, but okay Friday. I failed my English quiz, totally. I took a nap in AP Bio and it was really relaxing. I swore the teacher saw me, but I don't think he cared. We were all doing some reading thingy anyways. This nerd that sits behind me fell asleep too LOL. So, because of my nice little nap, I was really...not sleepy in Calculus. IT'S AMAZING :O ! The guy next to me-idk his name-I pointed this out and I was like: you fell asleep the other day, I fell asleep yesterday...yea. He was like: we shall NOT fall asleep today ! -determined look- Er...yea. Don't ask. Weirdo seniors (: After that, I had gym. Volleyball is fun <3 Except ball hogs and know-it-alls totally ruin it. This Asian kid thought the knew wtf he was doing, but he sorta didn't What a freaking ball hog. Ugh. But I did save the ball at the last minute without paying attention :D It was coming at me and I was like: WHOA -bump- Yay :D I had fun ~ Valerie showed up unprepared today. I was mad ):< ! Physics was the usual do-nothing period. I have to send him my e-mail sometime this weekend. I hope he'll accept it late ;x Just hope. Lunch was...eh. The usual I guess. Not too much bitching at each other so that's good o.o ? I cut 9th today :x The teacher wasn't here, AGAIN. Today was the third day. Yesterday I told myself: it's a Friday and if he's out, then I'm out. And I was :x So I texted the babyvicky and told her I was out already. She was shocked. Sorta >;o And time flew from there.
We headed for City Hall to get my NON-NERDY dictionary. It's really pretty and kind of worth it, according to the reviews. I have yet to use it properly but so far, it seems okay (: We then walked to Chinatown and I had my first taste of fried ice cream. It was good. End of story. AND NO, I DID NOT GOOGLE ON HOW TO MAKE FRIED ICE CREAM. GAWSH vicky thinks I'm OH SO predictable. BUT I AINT ;O ! So, ha vicky (:<3 Then we were off to somewhere...we saw walton o.o" It was awkward only cause he's oh so jealous of me :D ♥ I don't blame him tho :P We're sooo at war right now. ALL THANKS TO VICKY ;O ! ♥ But yeaa. He went up to his place and ate while vicky and I went to vivi's I got her fat (: I MEAN, full :o ! Popcorn chicken was yum. But I was feeling pretty full myself ;x I shouldn't have eaten it but I sort of had a craving :O I mean, coming to Chinatown without eating anything else ? No way. Although I should really watch my spending and start saving up ): And go shopping with vicky !
This was a pretty colorful picture of SoHo. No, I have no idea where that is. There's something called Google, where you can look for images of places. Amazing, right ? Anyways, moving on, again.
Oh darn my mom just got out of the bathroom. Time to shower and sleep (: ! I might actually get some sleep tonight but I got homework to do, so maybe not ): THREE-DAY WEEKEND FTW ;D ! I don't think there was much after that. I just took the train home with vicky and all our DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS ♥ ! totally did not take your phrase, sweetie :] YOU HAD BETTER LEAVE A COMMENT <3
I just realized this post seems a lot happier...and consists of a whole lot more smileys. I wonder why...I don't know. I just know I should go before I get yelled at :O !
Good night ~
-AK
el tiempo con mi amor es es el tiempo favorita ♥
someone check my grammar for me :O ?
Day 16
Oh my god. I updated withing a day ! Sort of. Not much to say today. not time. Mom's watching me like a hawk...sorta o.o"
I'll try to get home with enough time to update tomorrow, kay ? But just saying, nothing interesting happened during my school day. But I did realize something. More on that tomorrow.
And just for you: ILOVEYOUVICKYQIAN. There, I mentioned you (; Feel special, boo. You're the only one here <3
Good nights ~
-AK.
I'll try to get home with enough time to update tomorrow, kay ? But just saying, nothing interesting happened during my school day. But I did realize something. More on that tomorrow.
And just for you: ILOVEYOUVICKYQIAN. There, I mentioned you (; Feel special, boo. You're the only one here <3
Good nights ~
-AK.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Day 15
Ooh, I didn't update daily. Whoops, my bad. Can't really blame me-I'm loaded with homework and no computer time. Well, rarely any computer time. So, let's get on with my update ~ Loads to say, sorta.
Today was a semi-bad school day. I finished almost all my homework. Good enough for now, I was too tired to care. English breezed by. AP Bio was hell. I think I had a fever for a couple of minutes, I swear. I felt like I was burning up then a cool rush washed over me. It was weird...I failed my first quiz: 7/20. How sad. Then came AP Calc. I don't know why but today when Mr. Wise was going super-duper fast, I didn't get what he was saying and I was about to burst into tears. Maybe I was feeling overly emotional, I don't know. Gym didn't do any good to relieve my stress. I was on a team with ball hogs and bitches. They would hog the ball and when they missed, they totally expected me to get it. Well, screw that. Physics was okay. My friend sat next to me and distracted me but it was fun. I SAW IT KICK <3 I was so happy. I don't know why. It's just so amazing. I wonder how she feels like, I have another life within her-to be responsible for it. I know I'm not ready for that but it's still interesting to wonder how it feels like to be in her place. I may never know, due to the fact that I'll be dead. Ha, parents. After Physics, a part of my head-the back left side-was pounding painfully. I don't know why but it hurt like freak. I didn't feel anything at lunch but in U.S. history, my whole head hurt and I felt sick. But, things got better after that.
The bell rang, we left class. On my way up to my third floor locker, I RAN INTO ANTHONY LAM ♥ ! Man, I haven't seen that boy in ages. I gave him a hug :D ! Yes, finally ahaha. I am not weird. It was just nice to see him and hug him after such a painfully slow and agonizing day. HE GOT NEW GLASSES. It looks niiice :] I was gonna walk with him to the train station and chat, and catch up a bit but he was all like: I GOTTA GO HOMEE. So i let him go ): Otherwise his mommy's gonna go Godzilla on him and we don't want that, now do we :o ? I love how there's like 20 thousand smileys in this paragraph and like nothing in the last few. But anyways, moving on. I didn't see my other friend at the train station. Whatever. Not like my life revolves around him.
I took the Q train today, anyway. Went to Midwood Field for the boys handball tryouts. And guess who I saw <3 ? MR. ELVER HO ♥ ! My best best best best guy friend at Midwood. He's so awesome. I remember the happy days we had back in freshman year. Living Environment and Globa History. Fun times. I miss them, kinda. I remember he was playing with my phone and in my contacts, under his name, he changed it from just "Elver" to "Elver pwns :p" I changed it to that on my new phone cause I'm so used to it LOL. But anyways, saw him, talked a bit and sat down in the shade with Vicky. Ooh I forgot to say that I went to some bagel shop and got spoons with her for our mango sorbet. Yum ~ Vicky won't mind I forgot to mention her, cause she knows she's always in my heart. DON'T YOU, DEARIE !? ♥ Elver snuck out the handball courts and came onto the tennis courts to say hi, talk, whatever. I didn't get a hug ): I guess I forgot while I was being a fatass and eating my sorbet with Vicky. Hey, one forgets things when one is eating sorbet with one's love <3 So we talked and then he had to go back to the courts and try out. I hope he did well :o I didn't get a chance to say bye to him cause the stupid football team kicked us off the tennis courts. Why ? How the fuck should I know. So I left, but also left a text message :D Next time(and I have NO idea when that is) I'll remember that long overdue hug for my best friend ~
So, bus ride then home. I didn't do much after that. Homework and stuff. I can't believe I spent so much time on my Calc homework, it's ridiculous. I just finished typing up my English legend not too long ago. After I print it out, I'm going to get off my computer, study for my AP Bio test tomorrow and sleep. Ah, how sleep sounds like heaven right about now. My eyes feel so tired and I'm just...tired. There was more I wanted to say, but I sort of forgot...me and my memory. Ugh. I should just jot down random notes on scraps of paper and try to remember. But I might end up losing those too o-o;
I think that should be all for today, minus the thing I'm forgetting. So, wish me luck on my studying and my bio test ?
Good nights ~
-AK.
P.S. the picture wasn't taken by me. It's the only decent shot of MF that I found. Too bad it don't show the handball courts which is BEHIND this shot. Oh well.
"Saw Lammie and EH. 523&228(;
As well as 118 ♥ Missing my 249 ):
489 is nonexistent while 623 is a weird situation."
Today was a semi-bad school day. I finished almost all my homework. Good enough for now, I was too tired to care. English breezed by. AP Bio was hell. I think I had a fever for a couple of minutes, I swear. I felt like I was burning up then a cool rush washed over me. It was weird...I failed my first quiz: 7/20. How sad. Then came AP Calc. I don't know why but today when Mr. Wise was going super-duper fast, I didn't get what he was saying and I was about to burst into tears. Maybe I was feeling overly emotional, I don't know. Gym didn't do any good to relieve my stress. I was on a team with ball hogs and bitches. They would hog the ball and when they missed, they totally expected me to get it. Well, screw that. Physics was okay. My friend sat next to me and distracted me but it was fun. I SAW IT KICK <3 I was so happy. I don't know why. It's just so amazing. I wonder how she feels like, I have another life within her-to be responsible for it. I know I'm not ready for that but it's still interesting to wonder how it feels like to be in her place. I may never know, due to the fact that I'll be dead. Ha, parents. After Physics, a part of my head-the back left side-was pounding painfully. I don't know why but it hurt like freak. I didn't feel anything at lunch but in U.S. history, my whole head hurt and I felt sick. But, things got better after that.
The bell rang, we left class. On my way up to my third floor locker, I RAN INTO ANTHONY LAM ♥ ! Man, I haven't seen that boy in ages. I gave him a hug :D ! Yes, finally ahaha. I am not weird. It was just nice to see him and hug him after such a painfully slow and agonizing day. HE GOT NEW GLASSES. It looks niiice :] I was gonna walk with him to the train station and chat, and catch up a bit but he was all like: I GOTTA GO HOMEE. So i let him go ): Otherwise his mommy's gonna go Godzilla on him and we don't want that, now do we :o ? I love how there's like 20 thousand smileys in this paragraph and like nothing in the last few. But anyways, moving on. I didn't see my other friend at the train station. Whatever. Not like my life revolves around him.
I took the Q train today, anyway. Went to Midwood Field for the boys handball tryouts. And guess who I saw <3 ? MR. ELVER HO ♥ ! My best best best best guy friend at Midwood. He's so awesome. I remember the happy days we had back in freshman year. Living Environment and Globa History. Fun times. I miss them, kinda. I remember he was playing with my phone and in my contacts, under his name, he changed it from just "Elver" to "Elver pwns :p" I changed it to that on my new phone cause I'm so used to it LOL. But anyways, saw him, talked a bit and sat down in the shade with Vicky. Ooh I forgot to say that I went to some bagel shop and got spoons with her for our mango sorbet. Yum ~ Vicky won't mind I forgot to mention her, cause she knows she's always in my heart. DON'T YOU, DEARIE !? ♥ Elver snuck out the handball courts and came onto the tennis courts to say hi, talk, whatever. I didn't get a hug ): I guess I forgot while I was being a fatass and eating my sorbet with Vicky. Hey, one forgets things when one is eating sorbet with one's love <3 So we talked and then he had to go back to the courts and try out. I hope he did well :o I didn't get a chance to say bye to him cause the stupid football team kicked us off the tennis courts. Why ? How the fuck should I know. So I left, but also left a text message :D Next time(and I have NO idea when that is) I'll remember that long overdue hug for my best friend ~
So, bus ride then home. I didn't do much after that. Homework and stuff. I can't believe I spent so much time on my Calc homework, it's ridiculous. I just finished typing up my English legend not too long ago. After I print it out, I'm going to get off my computer, study for my AP Bio test tomorrow and sleep. Ah, how sleep sounds like heaven right about now. My eyes feel so tired and I'm just...tired. There was more I wanted to say, but I sort of forgot...me and my memory. Ugh. I should just jot down random notes on scraps of paper and try to remember. But I might end up losing those too o-o;
I think that should be all for today, minus the thing I'm forgetting. So, wish me luck on my studying and my bio test ?
Good nights ~
-AK.
P.S. the picture wasn't taken by me. It's the only decent shot of MF that I found. Too bad it don't show the handball courts which is BEHIND this shot. Oh well.
"Saw Lammie and EH. 523&228(;
As well as 118 ♥ Missing my 249 ):
489 is nonexistent while 623 is a weird situation."
Monday, September 21, 2009
Day 13
Ugh. A Monday. A bad one too. What a nice way to start the weekend. Other than bitching about school-the usual- I don't think there's much to say, really.
Homework load, the usual. Although this time I took the time to finish my U.S. history homework first. So, now I have a history homework that's not due tomorrow while I still have to do my AP Bio and AP Calc homeworks which ARE due tomorrow. How smart am I ? So, I have my quick bio homework to do and then work my butt off on my calc. I don't think it'll be too bad if I took the time to read the chapters and stuff. Tonight I will take my time. I had a latte so I think I should be good til 2AM :D Hopefully...
SO. What's going on in my life ? Not much really. I go straight home, be lazy, then do my homework. I wish I had the time to hang out more often. I might volunteer at the Downtown Hospital again on Wednesdays, WHO WANTS TO JOIN ME ? Only an hour-til 5PM, and that's it. Please ): ? Other than that, I plan to go straight home on Mondays and Fridays, no questions. Unless I'm not feeling tired. Tuesdays and Thursdays are a maybe only.
Oh dear, why do certain things keep coming back to me when I say I want it out ? Not that I'm not enjoying it now but I'm afraid. I know this isn't going to last long. I know I probably aint much more than a good friend. And yet... I don't know.
Funny stuff how many people read a Facebook status. I was bored and said something along the lines of "pfft who needs you when i got vickyqian and danchen :D ? <3" As for who I'm referring to, no one's knowing >;o ! Then one of my friends come along and got all "sad" and was like: i don't count huh :[? What a baby <3 So I then changed it to: "tonyzhao goes here cause he got jealous ♥" The latter, you don't have to know. It's just about Vicky killing me and me digging my grave o-o Kind of funny in my opinion. (:
OOH. I FOUND OUT THAT MR. ZHAO HAS UNLIMITED TEXTING. LIKE, FINALLY ;D I am not high x.x On coffee maybe :x Let the texting, begin !
So other than that little bit of recapping on my relationship with Tony-damn it's been ages since we've talking ): - I don't have much else to say. I do, actually but it's only on about my story and I don't want to ruin it for anyone or have anyone yelling at me for...my plot. So for now, with the exception of Vicky, no one knows how I'm going to start. No one, except for me, knows how it's going to end. Actually, I aint so sure myself. I might end it the way I want it to, the way I dreamed it would. Or, I make it a miserable ending and continue on. Who knows. I'll probably be lazy and make it short. Short and sweet, not bad, eh ?
SO it is now, 11:11PM. No lie. I just glanced at the clock and BAM ! Wow...anywhos. No wishing for me. I kinda stopped believing in that when it didn't come true after a year or so of trying. Maybe I was wishing for the wrong thing, I don't know. Too late to try now o.o
Time to shower, study, do homework and sleep ! Good night (:
-AK.
a: and i thought you forgot about little ole me !
b: psh, how can i forget you ? :D
a: aww, that deserved a well overdue hug ♥ !
Homework load, the usual. Although this time I took the time to finish my U.S. history homework first. So, now I have a history homework that's not due tomorrow while I still have to do my AP Bio and AP Calc homeworks which ARE due tomorrow. How smart am I ? So, I have my quick bio homework to do and then work my butt off on my calc. I don't think it'll be too bad if I took the time to read the chapters and stuff. Tonight I will take my time. I had a latte so I think I should be good til 2AM :D Hopefully...
SO. What's going on in my life ? Not much really. I go straight home, be lazy, then do my homework. I wish I had the time to hang out more often. I might volunteer at the Downtown Hospital again on Wednesdays, WHO WANTS TO JOIN ME ? Only an hour-til 5PM, and that's it. Please ): ? Other than that, I plan to go straight home on Mondays and Fridays, no questions. Unless I'm not feeling tired. Tuesdays and Thursdays are a maybe only.
Oh dear, why do certain things keep coming back to me when I say I want it out ? Not that I'm not enjoying it now but I'm afraid. I know this isn't going to last long. I know I probably aint much more than a good friend. And yet... I don't know.
Funny stuff how many people read a Facebook status. I was bored and said something along the lines of "pfft who needs you when i got vickyqian and danchen :D ? <3" As for who I'm referring to, no one's knowing >;o ! Then one of my friends come along and got all "sad" and was like: i don't count huh :[? What a baby <3 So I then changed it to: "tonyzhao goes here cause he got jealous ♥" The latter, you don't have to know. It's just about Vicky killing me and me digging my grave o-o Kind of funny in my opinion. (:
OOH. I FOUND OUT THAT MR. ZHAO HAS UNLIMITED TEXTING. LIKE, FINALLY ;D I am not high x.x On coffee maybe :x Let the texting, begin !
So other than that little bit of recapping on my relationship with Tony-damn it's been ages since we've talking ): - I don't have much else to say. I do, actually but it's only on about my story and I don't want to ruin it for anyone or have anyone yelling at me for...my plot. So for now, with the exception of Vicky, no one knows how I'm going to start. No one, except for me, knows how it's going to end. Actually, I aint so sure myself. I might end it the way I want it to, the way I dreamed it would. Or, I make it a miserable ending and continue on. Who knows. I'll probably be lazy and make it short. Short and sweet, not bad, eh ?
SO it is now, 11:11PM. No lie. I just glanced at the clock and BAM ! Wow...anywhos. No wishing for me. I kinda stopped believing in that when it didn't come true after a year or so of trying. Maybe I was wishing for the wrong thing, I don't know. Too late to try now o.o
Time to shower, study, do homework and sleep ! Good night (:
-AK.
a: and i thought you forgot about little ole me !
b: psh, how can i forget you ? :D
a: aww, that deserved a well overdue hug ♥ !
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Day 11/night or Day 12/morning
Okay, right now it's almost 2:30AM. I wonder if I should count this as night or morning ? I am a total failure. I was up this whole time and not a bit of homework was started. How sad. Well, tomorrow's homework day then ! Waking up at 7:30, leaving by 8:30 then back home by 3. By the time I finish my chores, it should be 4:30, probably enough to do all my homework and one or two extra U.S. history homework.
Am I feeling better ? I guess you can say emotionally I might be. Just a tad bit. Barely noticeable to me but maybe that's because of my killer headache at the moment. That might explain the less-depressing picture. I got the picture-posting idea from the lovely Ms. Emily (: While I'm awake I should do at least one U.S. homework. Yea I might go ahead and do that. And if my headache's gone then maybe I'll start on something new. Inspiration ? You can say it's back. But whether or not I'm able to write it depends all on my mood and brain. Wish me luck
Ugh. I need pain-killers.
-AK.
P.S. I wonder if my Chinese makes sense. Ahahaha, FAIL. And the different language postings I got the idea from Hung. I used to do it in English but to make your lives harder, it's in a different language. Have fun ~
一个新的灵感。一个新的想法。一个新的机会。
Am I feeling better ? I guess you can say emotionally I might be. Just a tad bit. Barely noticeable to me but maybe that's because of my killer headache at the moment. That might explain the less-depressing picture. I got the picture-posting idea from the lovely Ms. Emily (: While I'm awake I should do at least one U.S. homework. Yea I might go ahead and do that. And if my headache's gone then maybe I'll start on something new. Inspiration ? You can say it's back. But whether or not I'm able to write it depends all on my mood and brain. Wish me luck
Ugh. I need pain-killers.
-AK.
P.S. I wonder if my Chinese makes sense. Ahahaha, FAIL. And the different language postings I got the idea from Hung. I used to do it in English but to make your lives harder, it's in a different language. Have fun ~
一个新的灵感。一个新的想法。一个新的机会。
Day 11
So...tired. Who knew a whole day of sitting would make me so damn tired ? I should be doing my U.S. homework right now but instead I'm just browsing shit and uploading more shit. Yay. I'm so procrastinating, which is a bad thing. A really bad thing. Anyways, onto the update.
As you may have noticed, I sorta updated my layout. I added a music player, changed and tweaked some stuff on the sidebar and all those little etc. stuff. I absolutely love that song. The piano in the background sounds really nice-makes me want to look for the music notes. I think the music video for the song is a bit gay. I liked listening to the song without knowing how the vid looked like -__- The second song-if you stay on long enough- is First Time by Lifehouse. I love this song as well. If I had to pick by lyrics, that is my absolute favorite at the moment. Lifehouse is so awesome. Listen to them, NOW ! :o
As for my update, there's not much to say. I had my Saturday schooling: Chinese in the morning from 9AM-12PM and lunch with my bro. Then we both met my sister at OSA and went there from 2PM-6PM. What a waste of my Saturday, honestly. The math shit there is so easy compared to my Calc class. I find my verbal class to be more useful-learning new SAT words every week. Tomorrow I need to go back cause I gotta wait for my sister to finish her Sci-Hi tutoring. So I guess I'ma volunteer at OSA for the time-being. Get some hours done at least.
At this point, I'm rethinking about my writing. I think I should either stop pushing people to read, or give up. I feel like I should just stop dreaming for once, and face reality. Funny, how I went from being all chipper to this. Ugh. I hate how one person's simple statement gets me all...ick. And it takes another person to say a few words and I'm smiling again. Too bad she's sick and sleeping now. But she needs her rest and time so I don't bug her. I'll try to get through this one myself. Maybe it's about time I start that homework...
Be back on a happier note-maybe-in a few hours when I'm about to sleep. I'm only one so late because today, my dad's on a business trip and my mom's fast asleep. Yay me, I suppose ?
Laters.
-AK.
毎晩するには、結論に到達する必要があります。
すべての夢のために、目覚め。
すべてのファンタジーは、現実だ。
As you may have noticed, I sorta updated my layout. I added a music player, changed and tweaked some stuff on the sidebar and all those little etc. stuff. I absolutely love that song. The piano in the background sounds really nice-makes me want to look for the music notes. I think the music video for the song is a bit gay. I liked listening to the song without knowing how the vid looked like -__- The second song-if you stay on long enough- is First Time by Lifehouse. I love this song as well. If I had to pick by lyrics, that is my absolute favorite at the moment. Lifehouse is so awesome. Listen to them, NOW ! :o
As for my update, there's not much to say. I had my Saturday schooling: Chinese in the morning from 9AM-12PM and lunch with my bro. Then we both met my sister at OSA and went there from 2PM-6PM. What a waste of my Saturday, honestly. The math shit there is so easy compared to my Calc class. I find my verbal class to be more useful-learning new SAT words every week. Tomorrow I need to go back cause I gotta wait for my sister to finish her Sci-Hi tutoring. So I guess I'ma volunteer at OSA for the time-being. Get some hours done at least.
At this point, I'm rethinking about my writing. I think I should either stop pushing people to read, or give up. I feel like I should just stop dreaming for once, and face reality. Funny, how I went from being all chipper to this. Ugh. I hate how one person's simple statement gets me all...ick. And it takes another person to say a few words and I'm smiling again. Too bad she's sick and sleeping now. But she needs her rest and time so I don't bug her. I'll try to get through this one myself. Maybe it's about time I start that homework...
Be back on a happier note-maybe-in a few hours when I'm about to sleep. I'm only one so late because today, my dad's on a business trip and my mom's fast asleep. Yay me, I suppose ?
Laters.
-AK.
毎晩するには、結論に到達する必要があります。
すべての夢のために、目覚め。
すべてのファンタジーは、現実だ。
Friday, September 18, 2009
Day 10
I can safely say that I'm slowly getting used to this lifestyle. I don't think it's really healthy for me physically, but it is relieving some mental stress that's not school related. I don't know what was wrong with me last night, and I still don't know what's wrong with me now. Maybe I'm just tired. Or maybe it's this annoying cloud of I don't know what hovering over everyone. Maybe it's just me.
Well there wasn't anything much today, really. I actually got to school "early." Dad dropped me off by 7:40, I usually get there by 7:45. I got to the cafeteria with 10 minutes to spare. No one said hi, really and no one said bye either. Everyone kind of just left. I felt like I was in a nightmare some girl had. I read a story on Fictionpress.com and some girl based it on her nightmare. She always felt invisible and one day at school she heard about a murder and that the body was still i the conservatory. When she got there to see, she saw herself hanging from the ceiling by a jumprope, naked, and on her chest was written: VISIBLE AT LAST.
Kind of freaky. But I felt like that. Just not the dead part, thank God. So I go to class.
English we had to write a legend-first draft- for homework. I think mine was pretty good. The plot anyways. I think if I actually took the time to do it, it would've been a tad bit better. Too bad my group only had two people, including me, when we were supposed to have at least three. Oh well. I worked with this Chak dude. I felt so talkative this morning, no idea why. Maybe he was just extra quiet o.o" Then there was AP Bio. We got our quizzes back. I got an 85 D: how sad. But it was 20 questions ! They were worth more ! But I could have gotten a 95 if I had studied. Argh, I suck. AP Calc was no big deal today. We're doing infinite limits ! Yay ? It's not hard-just gotta remember some formulas I think. And get the concept, of course. Gym was fun, the usual volleyball ~ I think I'm in love with the sport. No matter how sucky I might be :x Although I prefer swimming in a way. My endurance in the pool is so awesome <3 Running on land is a different story... Oh ! Valeria and I were late to physics by 20min today. We were helping Coach D'Augusta fill out some record book. I had to stay behind and watch Valeria -wink- Luckily she gave us a late pass but it wouldn't have made a big difference seeing as our physics teacher won't question you if you're a minute or two late. He will wonder why you're 15min late tho... Lunch was ick. I didn't do my homework yet again. Jeez, this weekend if I have the time, I'm gonna do all my U.S. History homework if it's possible. So I won't have to do it next week !
I wanted to separate that mess up there into two paragraphs but then it'd make no sense in my opinion. I like to keep all school related stuff up in one paragraph. Now, moving on.
It's been ages since I last updated my story-almost two months. I know I should update but the funny thing is, as soon as I post something up, I just lose my inspiration to continue it. I don't know why. Maybe that's why I never finish my stories. Maybe that's why I should stick yo my one-shots, once and for all. But now I'm suddenly inspired by a new source, a new idea. It just came to me today. Luckily I ran into my friend today-the one who made me think about this in the first place. But the thing is, I don't know if I should make it multi-chaptered and have a developing plot, or make one SUPER DUPER long one-shot. I'll see how the plot unfolds. Maybe get some feedback first.
I don't think I can reveal my plot to too many people tho :x Maybe I'll take my time and make a long one-shot. Or just make a less-than-10-chapter thingy. Definitely. I will start planning it tonight (: Maybe give you some ideas. I think it should have something to do with my current situation. Possibly...NAAH :D I aint like thaaaat (: I guess you can say I'm feeling better ~
DANG. I just realized there's a lot to blog and bitch about when I'm depressed but then once I'm happy or doing fine, there aint much to say, really. o.o" Funny...
More tomorrow, MAYBE. I don't know if I can get the computer tomorrow. Tomorrow is the start of my hectic weekends. Chinese school, 9AM-12PM then SAT prep at 2PM-6PM. Be home by like 7:30PM at the earliest. Ugh .___.
Byebye. Dad's home ); !
-AK. ♥
Well there wasn't anything much today, really. I actually got to school "early." Dad dropped me off by 7:40, I usually get there by 7:45. I got to the cafeteria with 10 minutes to spare. No one said hi, really and no one said bye either. Everyone kind of just left. I felt like I was in a nightmare some girl had. I read a story on Fictionpress.com and some girl based it on her nightmare. She always felt invisible and one day at school she heard about a murder and that the body was still i the conservatory. When she got there to see, she saw herself hanging from the ceiling by a jumprope, naked, and on her chest was written: VISIBLE AT LAST.
Kind of freaky. But I felt like that. Just not the dead part, thank God. So I go to class.
English we had to write a legend-first draft- for homework. I think mine was pretty good. The plot anyways. I think if I actually took the time to do it, it would've been a tad bit better. Too bad my group only had two people, including me, when we were supposed to have at least three. Oh well. I worked with this Chak dude. I felt so talkative this morning, no idea why. Maybe he was just extra quiet o.o" Then there was AP Bio. We got our quizzes back. I got an 85 D: how sad. But it was 20 questions ! They were worth more ! But I could have gotten a 95 if I had studied. Argh, I suck. AP Calc was no big deal today. We're doing infinite limits ! Yay ? It's not hard-just gotta remember some formulas I think. And get the concept, of course. Gym was fun, the usual volleyball ~ I think I'm in love with the sport. No matter how sucky I might be :x Although I prefer swimming in a way. My endurance in the pool is so awesome <3 Running on land is a different story... Oh ! Valeria and I were late to physics by 20min today. We were helping Coach D'Augusta fill out some record book. I had to stay behind and watch Valeria -wink- Luckily she gave us a late pass but it wouldn't have made a big difference seeing as our physics teacher won't question you if you're a minute or two late. He will wonder why you're 15min late tho... Lunch was ick. I didn't do my homework yet again. Jeez, this weekend if I have the time, I'm gonna do all my U.S. History homework if it's possible. So I won't have to do it next week !
I wanted to separate that mess up there into two paragraphs but then it'd make no sense in my opinion. I like to keep all school related stuff up in one paragraph. Now, moving on.
It's been ages since I last updated my story-almost two months. I know I should update but the funny thing is, as soon as I post something up, I just lose my inspiration to continue it. I don't know why. Maybe that's why I never finish my stories. Maybe that's why I should stick yo my one-shots, once and for all. But now I'm suddenly inspired by a new source, a new idea. It just came to me today. Luckily I ran into my friend today-the one who made me think about this in the first place. But the thing is, I don't know if I should make it multi-chaptered and have a developing plot, or make one SUPER DUPER long one-shot. I'll see how the plot unfolds. Maybe get some feedback first.
I don't think I can reveal my plot to too many people tho :x Maybe I'll take my time and make a long one-shot. Or just make a less-than-10-chapter thingy. Definitely. I will start planning it tonight (: Maybe give you some ideas. I think it should have something to do with my current situation. Possibly...NAAH :D I aint like thaaaat (: I guess you can say I'm feeling better ~
DANG. I just realized there's a lot to blog and bitch about when I'm depressed but then once I'm happy or doing fine, there aint much to say, really. o.o" Funny...
More tomorrow, MAYBE. I don't know if I can get the computer tomorrow. Tomorrow is the start of my hectic weekends. Chinese school, 9AM-12PM then SAT prep at 2PM-6PM. Be home by like 7:30PM at the earliest. Ugh .___.
Byebye. Dad's home ); !
-AK. ♥
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Day 9
"Today is Day 9 of the 10-day cycle." These stupid announcements are as stupid as ever. I miss Mr. Williams a bit, actually. The new one sucks balls. Speaks too fast, no one understands her. So icky. SO, an update ?
Not much going on, I think. I'm just trying to be a "good student" to fulfill my own goals for the time-being. After a while, I just wanna drop dead at some points. Go somewhere and escape all this crap. I haven't been getting the best of sleep but I guess that's not unusual. Today was my second missing homework for U.S. History and I barely got away with a half-done Calc homework. Very sad. It's only been a week and something since school started and I'm already dropping a bit. How pathetic. I better pick myself back up if I really want that laptop. And I really want it. I know I keep bringing it up and it's annoying, but bear with me.
So let's see-english I'm off to a good-ish start. Except for this morning, I was late by a whole 20 minutes 'cause of some stupid traffic jam that I was sitting in for a good 30 min. Like wth ? I had an AP Bio quiz today and sorta studied. I think I got one or two questions with a guess 'cause I was unsure but other than that I think I did okay. It was just a biochem review, so I think I'm fine. I'm starting to understand the stuff Mr. Wise is teaching for calc. It's not easy but it's not so deadly hard either. I think I can manage, at least until the first test. Then I'm screwed.
So far, gym is actually one of my favorite classes. I get to let loose and we're starting volleyball so I can let out some negative energy out on the ball. Not that I have a lot that people know about, but a fair amount I suppose. Physics and U.S. history were a blur to me.
Dammit, this post is sounding so depressing. I think it's the people around me. Everyone's in a somewhat depressed mood. Of course, I'm trying to help my loved ones but they won't exactly let me. And they always help me. I feel so...helpless. Maybe I should start avoiding everyone to the best of my abilities :x ? I don't know what to do.
And my situation doesn't exactly get better. Let's just say, I'm crushed, if you call it that. Sort of. I mean I can pick myself back up but it just seemed t me like a waste of time. And I don't like wasting my time with something so "frivolous" Is that how you use the word ? I'm too lazy and it's too late to look it up at this point.
I should just forget everything that happened in the past few days and focus on the rest of the school year. Yea, that's how I should play my cards.
Til next time ?
-AK.
"just pretend nothing ever happened.
pretend i never had any feelings,
pretend that it never existed.
so it would go back to the way it was,
the way it's supposed to be.
then just maybe,
with that sliver of hope,
progress will be made."
Not much going on, I think. I'm just trying to be a "good student" to fulfill my own goals for the time-being. After a while, I just wanna drop dead at some points. Go somewhere and escape all this crap. I haven't been getting the best of sleep but I guess that's not unusual. Today was my second missing homework for U.S. History and I barely got away with a half-done Calc homework. Very sad. It's only been a week and something since school started and I'm already dropping a bit. How pathetic. I better pick myself back up if I really want that laptop. And I really want it. I know I keep bringing it up and it's annoying, but bear with me.
So let's see-english I'm off to a good-ish start. Except for this morning, I was late by a whole 20 minutes 'cause of some stupid traffic jam that I was sitting in for a good 30 min. Like wth ? I had an AP Bio quiz today and sorta studied. I think I got one or two questions with a guess 'cause I was unsure but other than that I think I did okay. It was just a biochem review, so I think I'm fine. I'm starting to understand the stuff Mr. Wise is teaching for calc. It's not easy but it's not so deadly hard either. I think I can manage, at least until the first test. Then I'm screwed.
So far, gym is actually one of my favorite classes. I get to let loose and we're starting volleyball so I can let out some negative energy out on the ball. Not that I have a lot that people know about, but a fair amount I suppose. Physics and U.S. history were a blur to me.
Dammit, this post is sounding so depressing. I think it's the people around me. Everyone's in a somewhat depressed mood. Of course, I'm trying to help my loved ones but they won't exactly let me. And they always help me. I feel so...helpless. Maybe I should start avoiding everyone to the best of my abilities :x ? I don't know what to do.
And my situation doesn't exactly get better. Let's just say, I'm crushed, if you call it that. Sort of. I mean I can pick myself back up but it just seemed t me like a waste of time. And I don't like wasting my time with something so "frivolous" Is that how you use the word ? I'm too lazy and it's too late to look it up at this point.
I should just forget everything that happened in the past few days and focus on the rest of the school year. Yea, that's how I should play my cards.
Til next time ?
-AK.
"just pretend nothing ever happened.
pretend i never had any feelings,
pretend that it never existed.
so it would go back to the way it was,
the way it's supposed to be.
then just maybe,
with that sliver of hope,
progress will be made."
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Day 7 of School .
School, 12:45PM, 1N03
In Physics class, signing up for UTexas. Damn it's cold in here ): And I'm hungry and feel whoozy at the same time. Yes, it's possible and it's not a very good feeling. My stomach's growling but at the same time I feel like puking my guts out :x
I'm just gonna save this draft for later. Who knows when I can get a chance to get on a computer. Nowadays I gotta kill myself til 4 in the morning to do homework and do extra good for that laptop. I really need it. My sister's constant hogging of the computer is really pissing me off. She doesn't even do anything worthwhile on it, and I have grades to keep up. Horrible. Just horrible.
I SO HUNGRY. I can't wait to see Vicky later :o ! I was going to to go to J&R to get a new electronic dictionary. Mine died ): And with my horrible vocab, I'm not going to survive long in British Literature, as a junior. -sniff- I wonder what I'm going to do with Vicky...OH ! I saw loads of people today. Well, loads to me. I haven't seen these people in ages. Sandy, Connie, Phoebe and Victoria (: ! It was refreshing to see Phoebe (; ! It's funny how I see my exes almost every day and we act as if nothing happened. Which is better than ignoring each other I guess. But sometimes I just wish I could cut them out of my life. Just sometimes.
Well, homework loads arent looking to great. Last week I only had Calculus homework and that alone left me sleeping at 1AM. Not used to it. I never ever sleep past 12AM unless I really can't sleep or something. But ever since school started, I haven't been able to get the sleep I need. I always end up going to bed at around 2-3AM and wake up at 5-6AM. How do people live like this ? I simple can't. Almost every teacher I saw yesterday gave me a whole workload of homework.
Home, 6:48PM, my computer.
AP Bio - written hw PLUS 3 chapters to read. 3 long chapters...
AP Calc BC - another hour plus hw.
US History - another boring section.
And there's more tonight ! Yaaaay ! Not. I was so dead yesterday, it's unbelievable. I fell asleep on my history homework and actually drooled on it. No lie. I hope it's not noticeable :x
There's so much more I want to say, but can't. Maybe if I had the guts to type it, and admit it to myself, then maybe you'll know. Til then-too bad. And also, I can't remember what it was at this moment -__-" Yes, I happen to be a very forgetful person. Which is why I try to blog ASAP. Like the above post, all that stuff before my hw schedule ? That was all done during Physics, as you might have seen o.o; Some nosy people wouldn't stop reading while I was typing );< -ahem- "OMG, we have emo blogging !" Like, wtf ? No.
I'm too tired to think anymore. And yet I haven't started my hw yet. That's my bad. I guess I shouldn't bitch tonight then :x I will also try to lessen my calls. Ugh. More on that some other time (: ? OKAY. I am out ~
-AK.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Finally, my update.
Yea, I sorta of lied. I didn't update yesterday. My bad. I don't even know what happened most of the day. I woke up at 11, then the day just...flew. I didn't even get to do half the stuff I had planned on doing. So, now an update.
Louise's Sweet 16, was...pretty sweet. Lack of a better word. It wasn't disastrous like I thought it would be. It was pretty fun, just letting loose and having fun, despite the circumstances. I thought it'd be awkward seeing my ex and all, seeing as we had this...chat the night before. I don't know. But I had fun. End of story.
Let's see...what else to update on. Godammit I should do a daily blog, seriously. It's too much stuff to remember. So annoying ): ! Umm...school started ! We had prefect(homeroom) and RIGHT after it, I had two AP classes, both double periods. Ugh. AP Bio, and AP Calculus BC. It's a hell hole, right there. But both my teachers seem fair.
AP Bio, no one I really knew except Lisa and she sits like...all the way in the front while I'm in the back. Ugh. I'm sucha loner ); Bright side is, I finally got a much needed locker in that class. Moving on. AP Calc. YAY...not. I walk in, look around, and see a smirking Kevin Hung in the FRONT, FIRST SEAT, NEAR THE TEACHER'S DESK. And guess what ? An empty seat right next to him, also in the first row. Oh joy. Thank God he rearranged us tho. But then he sits behind me and I can't cheat. Oh darn ): There goes me passing Calculus. We then moved onto a room on the second floor and this time, I'm stuck with a seat right in front of the teacher's desk. Let's say it together: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Darnit all.
Nothing interesting after that. I died a bit on the inside after hearing I had homework on the first day form my calc teacher. Yipee. Sike. 8th floor gym, then physics-cool ass teacher ahaha, then U.S. history. Boring teacher-gonna be on helluva year. NOT THAT MANY FRIENDS IN MY CLASSES
Other than school starting and me not seeing a lot of people I wanted to see (although I aint complaining about some -wink wink-), there wasn't anything too interesting in the past week or so. I've actually lasted quite a while without my dear, dear computer. -hugs monitor- I am not obsessed <3 Good thing I paid for my sidekick. Otherwise I'd DIE without some form of instant messaging. What can I say? I'm hooked (:
Well, anything interesting in my life to spill about ? How about my love life ? SIKE. I'm stupid, but not that stupid (: But I just want to say, I hate it when a guy sends mixed signals. One second, we're like clicking and having fun, etc. The next, he totally avoids me, walks away from wherever I am and stuff. Pisses me off. I didn't even get a proper good-bye from Mr. Lu. So sad, too bad. I'll get over it (: It aint even all that...bad :o I guess we'll just be cool friends. I should forget him in that way :x BUT there is this other guy...
No details on him yet. So sorry. But he's smart <3 I like them smart (; But then I feel dumb :x I gotta get used to it. Ugh. Oh wells.
Now my friend's boyfriend's like constantly bugging me. It's so annoying ): I don't care if you're reading this ! Read it for all I care ! You know how I feel about you anyways-it's no secret (: But let's see...anything else to update ? I guess not.
TIME FOR HOMEWORK...it is now 10:36PM let's see how long it takes me to finish my calc hw and start my U.S. history hw. Oh the joy. And I wanted to get a head-start. Fail.
i need a new catchy phrase.
-AK.
"and by the way, everything is life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. the worst enemy to create is self-doubt."
Louise's Sweet 16, was...pretty sweet. Lack of a better word. It wasn't disastrous like I thought it would be. It was pretty fun, just letting loose and having fun, despite the circumstances. I thought it'd be awkward seeing my ex and all, seeing as we had this...chat the night before. I don't know. But I had fun. End of story.
Let's see...what else to update on. Godammit I should do a daily blog, seriously. It's too much stuff to remember. So annoying ): ! Umm...school started ! We had prefect(homeroom) and RIGHT after it, I had two AP classes, both double periods. Ugh. AP Bio, and AP Calculus BC. It's a hell hole, right there. But both my teachers seem fair.
AP Bio, no one I really knew except Lisa and she sits like...all the way in the front while I'm in the back. Ugh. I'm sucha loner ); Bright side is, I finally got a much needed locker in that class. Moving on. AP Calc. YAY...not. I walk in, look around, and see a smirking Kevin Hung in the FRONT, FIRST SEAT, NEAR THE TEACHER'S DESK. And guess what ? An empty seat right next to him, also in the first row. Oh joy. Thank God he rearranged us tho. But then he sits behind me and I can't cheat. Oh darn ): There goes me passing Calculus. We then moved onto a room on the second floor and this time, I'm stuck with a seat right in front of the teacher's desk. Let's say it together: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Darnit all.
Nothing interesting after that. I died a bit on the inside after hearing I had homework on the first day form my calc teacher. Yipee. Sike. 8th floor gym, then physics-cool ass teacher ahaha, then U.S. history. Boring teacher-gonna be on helluva year. NOT THAT MANY FRIENDS IN MY CLASSES
Other than school starting and me not seeing a lot of people I wanted to see (although I aint complaining about some -wink wink-), there wasn't anything too interesting in the past week or so. I've actually lasted quite a while without my dear, dear computer. -hugs monitor- I am not obsessed <3 Good thing I paid for my sidekick. Otherwise I'd DIE without some form of instant messaging. What can I say? I'm hooked (:
Well, anything interesting in my life to spill about ? How about my love life ? SIKE. I'm stupid, but not that stupid (: But I just want to say, I hate it when a guy sends mixed signals. One second, we're like clicking and having fun, etc. The next, he totally avoids me, walks away from wherever I am and stuff. Pisses me off. I didn't even get a proper good-bye from Mr. Lu. So sad, too bad. I'll get over it (: It aint even all that...bad :o I guess we'll just be cool friends. I should forget him in that way :x BUT there is this other guy...
No details on him yet. So sorry. But he's smart <3 I like them smart (; But then I feel dumb :x I gotta get used to it. Ugh. Oh wells.
Now my friend's boyfriend's like constantly bugging me. It's so annoying ): I don't care if you're reading this ! Read it for all I care ! You know how I feel about you anyways-it's no secret (: But let's see...anything else to update ? I guess not.
TIME FOR HOMEWORK...it is now 10:36PM let's see how long it takes me to finish my calc hw and start my U.S. history hw. Oh the joy. And I wanted to get a head-start. Fail.
i need a new catchy phrase.
-AK.
"and by the way, everything is life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. the worst enemy to create is self-doubt."
Friday, September 11, 2009
Told myself...
to update but I always forget OR I don't have access to my computer. Which is sad to say. I'm running low on time right now, but I definitely promise a full update tomorrow.
Good night for now. I'm so tired. More tomorrow, I promise ~
-AK.
Good night for now. I'm so tired. More tomorrow, I promise ~
-AK.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Obsession ? Maybe :o
Okay, and update on me ! I am sadly obsessed with Gaiaonline once again ;x
Well, not obsesed...just addicted. It's not so bad (: I SUGGEST YOU TO JOIN ! NOW !
Or I will bite you :x Nhas. It's almost 9:30PM and I am pooped, man. Maybe I'll write more tomorrow. I'm actually going to wake up early tomorrow and go biking, LIKEOHMYGAWD. Good luck to me ):
Peace out ! You know you love me. ♥
-AK
Well, not obsesed...just addicted. It's not so bad (: I SUGGEST YOU TO JOIN ! NOW !
Or I will bite you :x Nhas. It's almost 9:30PM and I am pooped, man. Maybe I'll write more tomorrow. I'm actually going to wake up early tomorrow and go biking, LIKEOHMYGAWD. Good luck to me ):
Peace out ! You know you love me. ♥
-AK
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