Day 38 - a better day. (:

Today was really cold. And dull. And nerve-racking. Not seeing the people I want to see, it makes me...unbalanced ? Something like that I think. The bright side is, after I took some horrible tasting Chinese meds, I felt a whole lo tless queasy and no urgent runs to the bathroom. Who knew that what my mom said was actually true...I should've taken it earlier and saved myself a load of pain. But nooo, I had to suck it up like and idiot and deal. Next time, I'll remember to listen to my mommy.

As usual, my morning was pretty bad. Two English quizzes in one day. I was only told of one quiz that I didn't even bother studying for. It was either I pass a silly English quiz (that everyone failed anyways) or I pass my Calculus test (which I think I did horrible on). AP Bio was extremely boring. It's either I'm struggling or it's so boring I can't stand it. Maybe it's the teacher...I don't know. I just remember I was studying for my Calculus test in Bio. Ahaha. We were just discussing last week's lab..took some notes and that's it. I freaked during the test. The shit I studied, derivatives of trig functions, implicit differentiation, last exam, and stuff were barely on the test. Or maybe I had bad memory. I hate sitting in front of the teacher. He watches me for almost the whole double period. He knows I failed the last test and told me the other day, "If you do well on this test, I won't call your mom." I don't know if I already said this, but yea. After that was P.E. ! So far, my favorite class, but not for long, sadly.

Today was the final game of volleyball, Team 1 vs. Team 4. It was a close game. Team 1 was tough. But we won ! Most teams, as I think I have mentioned, have ball hoggers or people who either can't play or won't play. My teacher from last year had said volleyball in a way says something about your character. If you take the risk and say "I got it !" and go for the ball without falling back, then that means you're the type of person who's not afraid of taking chances. Or something proverbial like that. I really enjoyed the game though; we had longer volleys so it was way more fun. Usually with the other teams, the volleys are a lot shorter and all we do is score points...no fun at all. But team 1 is different. They actually work together as a team unlike all the others so that everyone has fun, whether we win or lose. But winning feels good too (:< ! Ugh, fitness on eighth floor next semester :/ I TOTALLY CAN'T WAIT .___. !

So, nothing interesting after gym ~ Except lunch, where I got to kick Thomas's ass, sort of. He wouldn't stfu about the senior guy. He kept saying how he looks like a girl, blahblah, hair is longer than mine-WHICH IS NOT-blah blah. I wanted to say, "At least he's manlier than you, still." It was delayed, but mean, so I shut up. I didn't want him saying more. Although I think his arm was perfectly bruised...-evil grin- He totally deserved it though. Honestly, I can't tell this "boy" anything without him blabbing it to the whole damn world. Nawanlany already knows, sorta, and now I think Simeon's going to try and figure it out. I sort of don't care, cause they both don't know him all that well, but still. Oh well, we had a nice-ish Facebook convo just now. I don't know how I would define nice, ahaha. He replied, I happy. Some jerkasses don't reply at all, so yea. (:

It is currently 1AM, now but for the sake of my blog, I'm going to lie about the time I posted it :X My two best friends of all time from Midwood just made my night. I miss Vicky so damn much; I think this is the longest time I've gone without seeing her physically. I wonder if she's doing good. I want to be there to make her smile if she's down and stuff. I think she's doing fine, or I hope so. I can only be here for her, no matter what. She sent me so many YouTube videos. She's so lucky I have headphones and my parents decided to sleep early tonight (: I think I favorited most of them ahaha x] My next best friend of all time is male and his name is Elver Ho. He did this anagram thing on Facebook and it said: Revel Ho. Ah if only his name was Elber, that'd be funny: Rebel Ho. It started from there. Then we had a nice convo on AIM, totally made my night. ♥ It's our little secret (; We sorta confessed our love to each other, as best friends AHAHA. I probably know what Vicky was thinking. She'll be so hurt if I didn't tell her xD It was OH SO HARD for him, even online he said. Pft, there goes his hug :P Aw, I was gonna call him gay, but I told him I'd stop ): So as of now, he's my best friend ♥ Second from Vicky ;D These two people are irreplaceable in my life, no matter where I go, what new people I meet, what school I attend, I can never ever forget them. I love you guys :]

Well, it's time for me to go to bed, I guess. Ack, my stomach's sort of acting up now. Aw man, it was fine most of the day ): I hope I don't wake up a few hours later and end up crying from the pain. Oh ! Speaking of crying...

I think I remember what I wanted to say yesterday. I ran into some of my Midwood friends who were going to the college fair. It made me realize that I truly miss my Midwood friends...that thought sort of made me lonely. Everyone was so updated with their lives, and school stuff. I feel so left out when they talk about things that I can't exactly contribute to. It's nice to know how they're doing-because I asked, LOL-but still. Even with friends and stuff at Tech, I still feel like Midwood is a part of me. It's a part of my histroy, that's for sure. But this thought kind of makes me sad. I felt like crying, for no apparent reason. I was just talking about the crying thing with Louise the other day. We both hate the fact that as girls, we're so emotional. Whenever we have time to just sit and think, the tears just sort of come. That's how it is for me. I remember during one of all my all-nighters, I was just sitting in my bed, thinking about nothing specific...and then I felt myself crying. I don't know what came over me, I don't remember what I was thinking about at the time. I just remember me crying for quite some time.

I don't know...Vicky and Elver, I don't mean to worry you guys or anything. I just felt like getting that out, for some odd reason. OH WELL, time to sleep (: ! It's 1:30 AM :X

Good night !

-AK.

And sometimes
When something's bugging us
We don't know what is it
We don't know what's wrong.
So we just
Let it all out.
Relieve the pressure.